新年前夕。

新年前夕。。没特别的感觉，没特别的喜悦。。
感觉好像还是一样，没变。只是多了烦恼吧。。
我发现，我害怕变动，却又害怕一成不变。。
我害怕周围的环境换了，我会不习惯，我需要再度适应新环境。
但是我却害怕我一直不变，害怕我没进步，害怕我跟不上别人的脚步。
我更讨厌决定了的事要改变。。
给了承诺要反悔。。我讨厌！！

爱一个人。。

爱一个人，请尊重他/她。

不要让爱变成彼此的负担。

爱一个人就要让他/她快乐。

但切记，不是只有你可以让他/她快乐。

他/她没选择你，别想不开。

因为爱他/她的你，还要看见他/她幸福的活下去。

或许你会想，他/她都不要你了，为什么我还要看他/她的幸福？

但是，爱他/她不就是要给他/她幸福吗？

只是，给他/她幸福的人不一样了。对吗？

同时，要记得好好对待自己。

虽然他/她没选择你，但他/她还是会关心你的， 所以别让他/她但心好吗？

他/她并没有对不起你，只是选了自己要的道路。

请祝福他/她。。

累。。

今天帮姐去教书， 小伙子好麻烦哦。。。
然后去面试，好累哦。到现在还没找到工，是我太挑剔吗？
是吗？好像不是哦。。不管啦。。
一定会有工作吧。
下雨了，以前的我喜欢下雨，但现在好像不喜欢了。
不知道为什么？
那天，去浏览别人的部落格，忽然发现我的部落格好像很幼稚。哈。
明年二十一岁了，是不是该成熟点了？

lisa's farewell dinner..

hoho.. 2day finally go watch the princess n the frog liao.. hoho.. go wif jen oli.. hehe.. den nite go sharing cafe to hav farewell dinner.. coz i ate 8 jen houz liao so i din rely finish my dish 8 sharing cafe.. lol.. wasting money.. stil owe jen money leh.. hehe.. den we go hui yi guo qu ktv.. izit hui yi guo qu?? lol.. hemm.. den i follow seh lin bck.. hehe.. hemmm.. wana find job.. mayb i cn find sum job wif seh lin help.. hehe..

心情日记

回家了。。
去玩的几天， 想了很多
发现原来我很不懂事
一直以为单纯是好的
可是
过于单纯就是白痴了
一直以为
念到高中三就很厉害
可是
原来我只是只懂书
其他什么都不懂的黄毛小丫头
只懂得带麻烦给人的丫头
毫无价值的黄毛小丫头。。。。。。

bck to home!!

jz bck home frm sibu.. go to miri n sibu for 8 days, din go til gua niah which make me feel vry ke si.. hehe.. survive wif jen yiin fei angkao n yi sheng for 8 days.. dono y.. i jz thk tt i m a bao fu for every1, n seem lik me vry noisy n vry fan ren.. lol.. after tis trip dono when wil hav again wif those fren who i k.. many ppl asking y go miri n sibu oo?? thr so bored.. ya.. mayb boring bt thr hav a different meaning when go wif frens.. othough d laz conclusion is tt yy ah is vry noisy for de whole journey n vry fan ren.. othough sumtime feel lik they don lik me coz me too noisy n make ppl feel tiring.. bt.. stil lik to go out wif them.. haha.. is tt call si chan lan da? dono ooo.. hehe.. sumtime may feel sad when they say i m vry fan ren bt next moment i wil continue to kacao ppl again.. haha.. appretiate everythg.. hemmm.. wan to noe detail go jen's blog.. lol.. tis jz my feeling in d trip.. hehe.. din buy much present for family coz dono wat to buy.. o mayb i din put mol effort in finding present.. hehe..

dono d way bck home??

lol.. yest slp til bout 12pm, den afternoon go whr??
forget leh..
den nite time go play badminton,
play wif jen them from 6 til 8,
den frm 8 til 10pm play wif my family which mean i play badminton for 4hrs.. wa.....
den i stil go jog around badminton court..
den 2day my leg vry painful.. lol..
tml is my mum birthday..
go around many place to buy her birthday present,
8 laz buy d present 8 sabarkas.. lol..
mon go miri lo... nt yet pack my xin li.. hehe..

dono wana pack wat.. scare tt i wil forget tis n forget tt..

woo hooooo!!!

finish exam lo... hohohoho.. finally.. bt act i start to relax vry early edi... lol.. bt rely release frm d bottom of heart.. hehe.. den go sing k for d whole afternoon.. pic... all 8 jen thr, don ask frm me.. lol.. den we hav our dinner 8 my home.. yup.. is my home.. jen drive me to my home n eat coz my dad organise a gathering.. dono for wat de gathering.. lol.. hehe.. jen nt d 1st time go my houz eat act.. lol.. den nite time we go bus asia to book ticket.. hehe.. den nite time go bing cafe.. i drink one n a half glass of chocolate which make me vry high.. gt a lil headache liao.. haha.. hemm.. dono wat to say liao.. lol.. jz too excited.. wan to noe mol detail go jen's blog to read.. she wil write mol detail den me.. lol.. nitez everyone..

心情

很忽然的
心情变低落了
不知道为什么
像是想起了什么事
脑子里却搜寻不到
空荡荡一片
总以为我能这样一直下去
一直这般的精力充沛
一直的开心笑着
可是
我好像累了。。。。。

moo moo..

yest i went to watch 2012.. hohoho.. finally!!!
go wif my dear moo moo.. so miss him...
quite a long time din c him lo.. hehe..
den jz after my movie den my mum call me n bomb me!!! WTF!!
i jz go out for one day during laz term exam leh..
exact saying is one afternoon, den nite time i stil go study!
i go out so many days to study she din tell my mum bt oli say i owes go out to play during d exam! WAT THE FUCK!!! U r d one who owes go out n finish d petro n stil say i m d one who finish d petro!

haizzz.. cool down cool down.. lol.. nite time i go to play badminton wif jen elvin n min poh.. den i sprained my leg.. T.T n nw it zhong qi lai leh..
bt nt so serious la.. stil cn walk.. haha..
during we play badminton gt a uncle cum to play badminton wif jen.. lol..
oh.. i forget one thg.. i forget to take pic wif my moo moo again.. T.T

珍惜

珍惜这一切
有错过
有冲动
有猜疑
曾误会
曾心碎
付出了真心
也得到了真心
不相信友谊永固
却相信
只要珍惜
这段友谊就可以走很远
朋友
我想说
我会好好珍惜你们

break day!!

tis morning sit for phy which make me exhausted
den after tt ask jen to pick me frm sch to go state..
den go satok eat ayam penyek..
rely nice ooo..
othough eat many time liao stil wun bored.. lol.. den go state..
meet yan py n sang thr.. after study for few hrs..

hemmm.. oli bout 2hrs i thk den bo xim liao..

den go ginger bread wif py n jen.. haha.. tt tauke nt thr.. which make me vry happy.. :p

hav bread as dinner.. den py say.. break day b4 exam..
haha.. rely bread day ooo..
after tt jen purposely send me home wif py acc us..
rely thx her.. so tml chia her eat laksa..
n tml oso chia yan eat laksa coz i lose d bet.. haha..
suddenly i feel so xin fu.. n wan to say..
今生有你们这些朋友，就什么都不求了。。
when we bck home we tok lots of previous time when we r in sungai maong..
haha.. i jz noe tt i look vry oily infront of ppl.. hahahaha..
happy day!!!!
wan to say thx again my fren..
thx for sacrify for me... i wil appreciate our frenship..
othough i dono hw long it wil go.. bt i noe it wil b vry long..
coz we o appreciate it..

enjoy!!

act feel lazy to update my blog de.. bt... 8 laz oso update.. haha.. hemmm.. nt yet finish my STPM, stil left five paper.. bt i go to enjoy yest edi.. go to watch Christmas carol 8 d spring.. hoho.. den go life's cafe eat 'ma la mian'.. OMG! i fall in love edi.... i love d 'ma la mian' vry vry much.. haha.. hemmm.. i spend RM60 wifin 2 days leh.... walao.... haizzzz... o use to eat.. :p i found tt yest i so mahuan ppl.. mayb ppl don mind bt i stil feel sry.. i make troubles to jen them.. py, n oso to my sis.. haizzzzz.... hemmm.. nvm.. haha.. errr.. i left my dog's food in py's car.. den tis morning i hav to cook porridge to my dogs.. so mahuan.. lol.. 2day is public holiday, plan to go state lib bt is holiday so cnt go... haiz.. i 8 home alone again.. well use to it edi.. my bro go to his camp for 2days one nite, my elder sis go out wif her frens den my younger sis stay 8 my grandma houz.. lol.. nice oso i x nd to cook.. me myself nvm.. n d moz angry is even i cook oso don hav ppl appretiate.. so better x nd cook.. dogs even better 8 least they stil acc me for nw.. lol... hemmm.. yest nite dono y i so hot temp. n kolian d dam dam bcum d victim.. haha.. n two rude ppl 8 mcd thr make ppl so so so angry!!! i open d door for py them to cum in den gt two person one lady n guy n wat d fuck!! m i look lik a waitress 8 mcd??? i was wearing black shirt yest n d waiters thr is wearing white uniform.. r they colour blind????? i open d door they din say thx nvm, they din even try to hold d door n put shit on they faces! jz treat me as waitress thr! even i m a waitress they oso nd to say thx wat.. wat a rude ppl! haiz.. tt time i told myself to b patient o nt i wil jz slap d door on them! they shud happy tt i din do so.. haiz.. den d whole nite i don hav mood to study.. dono y?? haizz.. den i go isabella to meet my sis.. which make trouble to py coz nd her to drive me thr purposely.. haizzz.. nvr thk b4 make decision.. den we play heart attack thr.. lol.. y i don look lik sitting STPM exam?? stil go around n play.. haiz.. haha..

本来还想继续从少年拿故事的，但是懒惰了。。嘻嘻。。 如果还想看敬请期待。。如果等不及那就去买一本，记得是今年十二月的哦。。我超爱这一个月份少年的故事。

故事一

在纪伯伦的故事里，有那么一个小故事。。。。
有一天，有一双蚌对隔壁的一双蚌说，“我好痛苦，我的身体里有一个又重又圆的东西。”
另外那双蚌傲慢的说：“谢天谢地，我并不觉得痛苦。我里里外外都很好。”
那时有一只螃蟹经过，便说：“没错，你是觉得很好，但你不知道的是你的邻居所孕育的痛苦却是一颗极美的珍珠。”
改变痛苦的，但不改变更痛苦。

注：载自于少年

din count..

lol.. i din count i left hw many days to go.. bt.. stil feeling vry n vry nervous.. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........................................................................................................

library..

lol.. 2day go lib force myself study.. othough nt much tt i did.. bt i thk better den i stay 8 home.. den we go ginger bread.. tt tauke speak to us.. don lik him act.. bt his word make me thk.. everytime i tell myself tt aiming for pass is enuf.. n i said tt in ginger bread.. den tauke heard tt.. he said tt if i oli aim for pass wat for i go to form6??? y i jz don go out den find a work bt nt cincai study den mayb 5yrs o mol l8r i cn b pro in wat ever bidang i go to.. tts true.. i jz aiming for pass den i cnt choose any U tt i wan n i jz cn go for U tt government giv me.. he said.. nw left one month.. i shud study everyday n vry vry hard to try my best aiming higher n higher target bt nt oli for pass.. if ppl study 2 hrs den i shud study 6hrs.. if ppl study 6hrs den i shud study 12hrs.. ya.. he is rite.. bt i jz lazy.. haizzz... hope tt i wil try my best.. plus oil..

爱到平凡才是真

男人应该这样爱一个女人

　　爱一个人就是，清晨起床时，轻轻一吻；
　　爱一个人就是，你赖床不起时，要她拉你起来，当她把手给你的时候，冷不防被你拉到怀里；
　　爱一个人就是，做了她自己都不能下咽的饭菜时，你却津津有味地吃着，一边说女友做的比外面的好吃多了，然后又偷偷地再吃别的东西；
　　爱一个人就是，要她帮你抄写东西，你念着念着就冒出“我爱你”，她也顺便就写到文章里；
　　爱一个人就是，在情人节她向你要花，你一本正经地说：节日买花太贵了，商人趁机涨价呢。当她心灰意冷回到家时，却看见一大把红红的玫瑰在向她微笑；
　　爱一个人就是，她生气时，你绕着她左三圈右三圈的转：你别生气了，你看你看，我都急得团团转了；
　　爱一个人就是，她没胃口，不想吃饭时，你一边大声地骂着她，一边往她碗里夹她最喜欢的菜；
　　爱一个人就是，她要在大雪的深夜归家时，你到她单位等她到全身冰冷，却忘了车子是可以将她一直送到家的；
　　爱一个人就是，当她身体不好，要坚持吃药，而她老是很大意的将药丢到一边，你看到后对她狠狠地说：以后要是你痛可别叫我，我是不会理你的。到了她痛的时候你看她时比她更痛的眼神；
　　爱一个人就是，自己吃东西的时候，不在意的就送到她的嘴边，她也不在意的吃上一口
　　爱一个人就是，为她买的每一件衣服都合她的身材，可以让她自豪地说：这是我男友为我买的；
　　爱一个人就是，买了不合你心意的东西，你也很高兴的接受，然后把它放在一边偶尔用上一两次；
　　爱一个人就是，她为你织的毛衣小了于是想送给别人，你不让：以后我瘦了可以穿的；
　　爱一个人就是，你高兴时把她搂着转上几圈，失意时可以伴在她的身边，相信她纤细的肩膀能担起你沉重的心情；
　　爱一个人就是，在外面遇到不愉快的事可以回家对她发脾气；
　　爱一个人就是，出差在外，每天给她的一个很平常的电话；
　　爱一个人就是，相信她的全部，也尊重她的全部；
　　爱一个人就是，你（她）在外面无论遇到什么好玩的、好看的、好吃的都会在心里想到：要是她（你）在有多好；
　　爱一个人就是，无论把她带到何种场合，你都自豪的介绍：这是我女友；
　　爱一个人就是，永远用爱心对她，不刻意的为她做很多的事，但每一件都充满浓浓的爱意；
　　爱一个人就是，两个人互相依赖，互相习惯，习惯于生活中有彼此的存在，习惯于对方的优点和缺点，习惯于空气中有他气息……

女人应该这样爱一个男人

　　当你爱上一个男子，千万别去想自己是不是应该矜持一点。爱他就告诉他，有时候男人也很爱虚荣，你的表白会让他的自信达到顶点。
　　当你已经不爱他了，那么也用最直接的方式告诉他。别去考虑他会不会脆弱，男人的自尊远比伤痛重要。
　　当你们已经相爱，那么就要对他信任，有什么想法就告诉他，不管他支持不支持。任何一个男子都希望他的女人依靠他。
　　在他的朋友面前，要给他十足的地位。面子对男子来说比什么都重要，不要介意在人前当个小女人，要知道小女人都是男人宠出来的。
　　他在打游戏的时候，不论你有多急的事情，也不要直接去关他的电脑。最好是搂着他，在他耳边轻轻的细语。因为男人对游戏的执迷胜过你看一部精彩的肥皂剧。
　　男人每个月也有那几天，跟女人差不多，心情无故低落。这个时候不要问他怎么了，只要陪在他身边。做好你自己。
　　他和朋友出去喝酒、打牌，你不要问他为什么不带你一块前往。男人都愿意做风筝，只要线还在你手里，那么就放他去飞吧。
　　男人都很懒很笨，尽管他爱你，但是不想费尽心思讨好你，你所能做的就是在适当的时候给他个明示。男人有时候需要女人给他强有力的当头一棒。
　　男人不管他外表有多强大，但是骨子里都还是一个孩子。他在任性的时候不要对他大吼大叫，这对他不起做用。最有效的办法是陪他一起疯。等他平静后轻轻的告诉他你很爱他。
　　男人都是不肯认错的，在他知道错的时候给他一个台阶下。他会知恩图报的。
　 　体谅一个男人，那就是把他当成你的爱人、情人、哥哥、朋友、父亲、孩子。爱他，不要给他负担，给他自由，给自己自由。做女人要知道什么时候该进什么时候 该退。什么时候该挡在他的前面；什么时候该躲在他身后。把他当成你自己一样去爱护，成全了他的幸福，他才会成全你的幸福。
　　爱一个人其实就是平凡，爱到平凡才是真！

lazy lazy..

hehe.. tis morning wake up found tt thr is heavy rain outside.. den i make a decision, hoho.. x wan go to sch.. hehe.. lazy leh... haizzz.. den i slp til 8 am den wake up liao.. den i switch on computer.. til nw.. lol.. left few days to go.. STPM is around d coner.. nervous.. bt stil nt rely start to study.. haizzz.. pls let myself hardworking a bit.. pls... haizzzz... hemmm... my results for MUET for mok exam de is band 4.. wondering i cn get such high results during my real exam o nt? i don thk tt i rely did well in my MUET speaking coz i nervous til i dono wat m i toking bout.. haizzz.. lol...

speechless...

hemm.. i forget to say tis laz nite.. lol.. yest.. i hav my muet claz.. n i get my muet paper 1.. noe wat.. i get 34 over 45.. so high huh??? dono.. bt teacher say tt i get so high marks coz i curi tengok d ans.. wan to noe d story?? coz during d exam day.. d exam start 8 11am.. den.. i slp til 10.50.. so.. u cn imagine.. i m rushing for my exam.. when i reach sch is 11.15 edi.. den when i enter d claz.. i found tt thr is no table for me.. i thk to go next door to take a table bt i m rushing of time edi, so i jz share d table wif teacher.. den.. yest teacher told me tt d ans is put on d table during de exam.. i wil get such high mark jz bcoz of i look 8 d ans.. wat d fuck!!! i din even noe tt thr is ans on d table.. plus teacher shud b d one who responsible on d ans n shud nt jz put d ans on d table no matter gt student share table o nt?? coz if students pass by teacher table oso cn read d ans.. n teacher is juz bside me.. even i noe thr is ans on d table oso cn look 8 d ans!!! hw m i goin to curi tengok huh????? haizzzzzz.. speechless.. even i told teacher tt if i curi tengok i wil get even high mark bt nt oli 34 she oso don blieve me.. wat to do?? jz let it b.. as long as i noe tt i din do so.. lol...

是男人的， 看了应该知道这么做吧？

A:她：“老公, 帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了, 我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。
她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧, 我去给你接。”

女人对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有, 只要你疼她, 她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班, 给她打电话“宝贝儿, 我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的, 别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去看球了啊 。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了, 上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看, 我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的, 你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”
没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下, 我一会儿去接你。”

其实女人不是不懂事。只是, 她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实, 情侣之间, 是可以互相的。
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A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点, 十二点, 一点, 两点……
后来, 她不再打电话催他。
因为她知道, 对于不守承诺的男人, 一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭, 九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”

信任, 是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期, 身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服, 收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿, 辛苦了！”然后转过头, 继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期, 很难受, 起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊, 以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句, 她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一 辈子的感恩, 并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
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A:她给他拿了一包榛子, 然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候, 榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子, 然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候, 她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴, 就好像炫耀克拉钻一样, 这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
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A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高, 能力强, 长得漂亮, 对我又这么好。”
她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善, 很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心, 会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地狱！”
她哭了。

一个人, 是因为你对他好, 所以觉得你好。 一个人, 是因为懂得你的好, 所以想要对你好。 幸福的恋人, 首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己。

tired..

hoho.. 2day go to eat pizza.. i ta bao n go jen's houz to eat.. 8 1st i though is large de.. hemm.. shud b say i though regular is large de.. who noe regular is bigger den small de bt smaller den large de.. lol.. after tt my mum go jen houz to pick me.. nite time go watch dancing competition of primary kids.. coz my sis oso one of d dancer.. so suprice tt my sis sch get champion.. lol.. bt.. so boring la.. coz o of them r kids n o d dance omoz d same coz nd to b traditional dance.. lol.. hemm.. i haven tok bout my exam results ho?? i thk.. stil ok bt nt enuf gd coz nt yet pass.. othough is better den laz time bt stil nt yet pass.. i nd to add mol oil.. lol.. plus oil plus oil.. i noe i cn do it.. lol.. nitez n sweet dreams.. missing my moo moo.. n oso my sis 8 johor de.. lol..

wondering...

morning every1... lol.. i oso wondering tt y i write so many blogs within one day?? haha.. i oso dono.. hehe.. jz wan to say tt finally i brought a present for my sis birthday.. sumhw.. i owes thk tt presents tt giv to others muz b meaningful.. especially for them who i k bout.. dono y?? hehe.. bt.. oso nd to c yuan fen.. i noe i say lik tt vry stupid.. bt everytime i buy present is base on yuan fen bt nt jz simply buy.. haha.. weird rite?? lol.. hemmm.. dono wat to say liao.. n nw vry hungry.. so tts o.. hehe.. bb..

好久好久

我多久没写博客了？
好久好久了。。
考试没时间吗？
还是我累了。。
终于今天我抽出时间了
因为我又哭了。。
除了家人和他
她是另一个让我落泪的人
是我放了太多的感情吗？
好像没有。。
她却还是让我落泪了
是我变弱了吗？
好象是吧。。。。。。
我把心锁住了。。
一封信息
一句话
一个关心
却让我把锁打开
忍不住放声哭了。。
该感激他让我解脱？
还是该责怪他让我软弱？
谢谢关心
我没事了
因为我有少年痴呆症
下一秒就会忘了
什么让我伤心。。
：）

习惯了。。原来。。。

习惯了带上笑容的面具
习惯了自己一个人哭泣
害怕没了笑容
泪水会往下流
习惯了别让其他人担心
习惯了所以保护好面具
习惯了让受伤的心隐藏
习惯了自己一个人疗伤
习惯了受到别人的伤害
习惯了原谅别人的无心
习惯了把错归纳于自己

原来错都在我
原来我不够积极
原来是我自愿付出
原来人家不一定要接受
原来我太自以为是了
原来我太自私了
原来我从不曾靠近她的心
原来我在自作多情
原来都是我一厢情愿
原来我只是一股脑的把自己想要的塞给人
原来我不曾问她是否愿意
原来是我拿了一把刀给对方
原来是我把心放在她面前
原来是我让自己受伤了

哭累了
想睡了
睡不着
失眠了。。

没时间

没时间。。
没时间。。
没时间。。
原来我浪费了很多的时间。。

感觉还在。。

不知道为什么？？几天过去了。。那感觉还在。。中秋节那天。。没一家团圆的感觉。。那种失落感。。到现在都还在。。没你吵着说要蛋黄月饼，没你一起做月饼。。那感觉。。好失落。。我何时和你的感情这般的好？ 我从来不知道。。以往天天在一起，不知道什么是想念。。现在知道了。。明天，要站上战场了。。好好加油！！我应该行吧。。

中秋节快乐！！！

hoho.. go celebrate zhong qiu yest nite 8 kch fest de taman.. lol.. den we go thr play tanglung.. hoho.. laz yr cnt play tiz yr play bck.. lol.. b4 go kch fest de taman we go eat pizza hut.. eat till so full leh.. poor angkao drink so so so n so many cola.. noe y? coz we play 'oh... fat'(dono is spell lik tis ma?) den he kp lossing.. haha.. den as usual i m d victim for yest nite.. hw to say victim?? hemmm.. kenak attack by them o.. haha.. anywhr i gt a new nick name.. lol.. 黑胡椒.. quite a nice name wat.. oli tt i nt enuf it spicy.. haha.. noe y i owes kenak attack?? coz.. me so da fang.. wun xiao qi.. so nvr angry bout them attacking me.. haha.. c.. me so nice.. lol.. siuk sendiri hr.. :p haha.. den we go tt.. ermmmmmm.. i forget tt cafe name edi leh... haha.. jen.. remind me when u read my blog.. haha.. act kai wana join us 2nite de.. bt his grandma pass away.. sry bout tt.. hemm.. n py don wan go.. haizzzzz.. long time din go out wif her liao leh... yan don wan go coz she go to pending, fei nd to work.. so oli me jen boy angkao bert n dam go.. me n jen go buy snack foods den din finish oo.. lol.. n we buy 30 tanglungs.. haha. so crazy.. bt 8 last din finish use o d tanglung coz lazy liao.. bt.. feel tt laz nite de qi fen gt a lil weird.. lol.. dono y?? haha.. anywhr i stil vry happy coz i gt play my tanglung.. hoho.. ah gal.. don jealous ooo.. u oso cn go buy tanglung n hang it everywhr in ur hostel.. haha.. den u go buy mooncake urself n eat.. lol.. oh ya.. i gt make mooncake myself.. n.. nt so sucessful.. hoho.. dono u guys eat liao gt feeling nt well ma?? haha.. n u noe wat.. i hav a dream yest nite.. guess i dream off wat?? i dream off a vampire.. n who is d vampire?? angkao leh.. n whr is de place?? is d park tt we go laz nite leh.. so so so.. weird la.. yest nite angkao jz say u though i m a vampire meh in tt park den tt nite i dream off it edi.. so scary leh.. lol... hemm.. next wed is my MUET speaking exam edi lo.. hope tt i wil hav a gd results.. haizzz..
gt a 金玉‘凉’言 wana share wif u guys.. sang sang say de.. lol..
人生在世 how many
何必日夜要 study
只要成绩考的 pass
文凭在手就 happy..
lol... 笑容让世界更美丽。。所以记得多笑哦。。

jz bck frm fun...

hoho.. 2day go out wif jen n py.. early in d morning mum n i bring my lucky go to clinic to.. erm.. hw to say ho? make it wun pregnant.. rm80 leh.. den make me late when goin to jen houz.. arrive her houz 8 12.30.. n cause her vry hungry.. lol.. i nt purposely.. den jen told me tt if go government de oli nd bout rm10 leh.. wat a huge difference.. haizzz.. den we go mcD to eat.. py sick leh.. she is fever bt she stil eat fried thg.. den i oli eat one sundae coz i hav my lunch edi.. hehe.. we saw ah bert n ah kai when we finish our lunch.. den.. we go absolute.. to sing k!! hohoho.. dono y i kp pronouns wrong for tt word.. lol.. den 3 of us sing for 4 hrs.. haha.. jen omoz no sound liao.. den py is totally no sound.. coz she sick.. plus soretrough.. kolian.. bt she stil acc us lo.. so touch.. jz bcoz i nvr go sing k b4 n kp on saying i wana go.. den jen n py jz acc me.. thx oo.. after tt.. hohoho.. we go d spring.. go d spring do wat?? ofcoz is.... go eat donut!!! hohoho.. feel wana eat for so long edi.. den i buy two for my younger sis n bro.. den we bring py bck home 1st coz she so uncomfortable.. dono she gt guai guai rest early ma?? lol.. den we go bck to jen houz.. den we go boulevard using jen jen daddy's car.. n i left my donut in jen's car.. when we go bck to jen houz his daddy drive her car to fetch her bro.. den.. my parents cum to pick me b4 jen jen daddy cum bck.. as a conclusion my younger sis n bro don hav donut to eat.. lol... next time ba.. sry ooo.. hemm.. tts o for 2day activities.. hoho.. so happy.. hemm.. i nd to plus oil for my STPM.. i don wan until i cnt apply into U jz den i regret.. i muz b hardworking.. plus oil oo.. i noe u cn do it. hoho..

wa.....

lol.. wat a long time din touch d pc.. coz my bro use it frm fri til nw.. for d whole day.. start frm early early in d morning til midnite 12 o 1 am... walao.. he sit infront on d pc wun left oo.. except he go eat bath n go toilet.. haizzz... so i don hav any ji hui to touch d pc.. until nw coz he promise mum oli wil play pc for 3 days coz he stil nd to study... he wil sit for her PMR on oct.. gd luck for him.. lol... hemmm.. wat i wana say ho? start frm yest ba.. yest we go malays home pai nian.. go eat rendang n curry.. den tis morning 4am my stomachache til i woke up.. :( haizzz.. den la du zi.. muz b yest ate to much curry... haizzzz... den 2day go 24miles thr 'la han'.. hemmm.. muz b many ppl ask wats tt mean.. lol.. dono hw to explain le... my sis wil noe.. haha.. so nice... n we go siew min's houz.. noe wat.. we bring bck a puppy......... yay!!! bt mummy say wana throw away d old one.. so bad... bt we o nt allow.. hoho.. d previous puppy tt we bring bck frm badminton court named lucky.. den guess we giv new puppy wat name??? u guys sure cnt guess de.. lol... his name is.... toto.... haha.. u guys din c wrong.. is toto.. coz... we say.. lucky toto.. so nice.. haha.. we cn say 多多lucky.. so nice wat.. lol... den when we bring toto bck.. we suddently found tt lucky bcum so big.. haha.. coz toto is a short legs dog which make it so small.. haha.. bt he vry cute oooo.... cnt catch it's pic coz he owes move move move.. so... oli gt tis one.. hehe.. cute???
c.. he so short.. lol... n they kp on fighting leh...
lol... lucky kp on kacao toto...

arghhhh....

dono y... jz wana to scream.... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! haizz... noe wat.. i forget my tui on tues nite again.. morning ivan stil remind me on tt bt i stil forget.. haizz.. luckily my mum rmb n gt wake me up frm my nap.. lol... wats mean by fren?? i dono y fren cn jz say don wan den don wan edi?? don hav feeling de oo?? n yet whole grp ppl pai ce him.. so kolian.. is tt rely his fault? d gal oso hav d responsible wat.. y their frenship cn easily affected by jz a gal.. haizz.. so stupid.. 我也曾经这样被伤害过。。 就因为一丁点的小事，友情就被卖了。。 难道我们的友情就真的那么肤浅？？ 就那么的没价值？？我很庆幸，我早发现，但如今伤痕还是深深的烙在我的心上。。一碰就痛。。不值得啊。。亲爱的朋友，你要坚强。。你会发现更好，更值得为你付出的朋友。。就像我一样。。加油啊。。
最近，我开始懒惰写博客，为什么？不知道，感觉太多的事，压得喘不过气，压着压着，竟然不知道该这么释放了。。也写不出来。。以前只要不开心，通过文字，一个一个的释放出来。。然后不开心的，受伤的，压力的，都和文字留在博客，而不是心里。。开心的也和大家分享，让开心加倍了。。可现在。。好多好多的事。。都没写出来。。 好闷啊！！！

fri..

act fri nite i shud update my blog edi bt i reach home 8 bout 2.30am.. so.. hehe.. so.. hehe.. din update til nw.. fri afternoon i gt extra claz til 1.30.. act is my mum cum fetch me de.. den py say wana go sweet ice eat.. i ask her drive me home.. n she so nice tt say yes.. den she wan shun bian on9 8 my home.. we lin shi say wana ask fei go wif.. den wake her up frm her dream.. hehe.. den go sweet ice wif jen.. after tt py n me bck my home.. den... we found tt... my houz don hav electricity.. poor py.. cnt on9.. lol.. hai ta bai pao yi tang.. hehe.. after py left my home bout 10 min, my houz gt electric liao.. lol.. hemmm.. nite time go tui.. my fren baby ask me go for movie after my tui.. she say go watch 'xia dao xiao'.. i say don wan.. i don wan watch ghost movie.. den she told me tt's nt a ghost movie.. den i ask py.. she said vry funny de movie.. den i say ok lo.. i back home den wait her cum pick me.. coz she work til 10sumthg.. noe wat.. i get a big suprise.. my mum bring bck a small puppy.. so cute..
cute leh... hehe..
hemm.. den after tt baby cum fetch me 8 11pm.. den we go MBO watch movie.. d plan of d building thr so weird la.. jz lik a mi gong.. many ppl cnt find d way up to d cineplex.. lol.. den we watch ghost movie.. baby cheat me... i pay rm10 for watching my own hand.. coz i use my hand to cloz my eyes.. haizzz... oh ya.. n oso one free drinks... haizzzz.. n yet i slp alone yest nite.. :( oh ya.. n a vry vry bad news.. i hav extra claz for che on wed frm 1 to 3pm, for phy on thus frm 1 to 3pm, n che again on fri frm 12 to 1.30pm.. OMG!!! i hate extra claz.. haizzz.. bt who ask me gt so lauzy results?? haizzzzz...

happy...

happy... noe y i happy?? coz.. i jz hav a tok wif my sis.. so so n so miss her.. tok bout one an hrs.. 名副其实的电话粥。。 haha..tml wana go hav breakfast wif py.. she cum n fetch me.. so touch.. hehe..

finish test lo....

ya ya.. a small test oli.. stil hav two big exam... haizz... y after exam din feel release ho?? haizz.. wana go play badminton for release who noe i so lauzy oli play for a while nia.. feel vry tired edi.. jz feel lik don hav energy.. n my mentual pain oso cause me so so n so.. hemmm.. useless?? n i forget to bring one of my racket bck home again.. scold by mummy... T.T den go tui.. i wil stop my che tui lo... when sept finish... hohoho..
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我发现。。
原来。。 他一直都在心里深处。。还没被遗忘。。只是被我锁了起来。。可是没锁紧呢。。有时，他还是悄悄的跑出来。。非要扰乱我的情绪才甘愿。。真是的。。

exam...

tml exam lo... n yet i stil sit infront of d pc n playing fb's games o update my blog... sumtime i thking tt if i fail for my stpm hw ho? y i stil so bo liang bo jua? haizzzz.. find ppl yang wo after i fail my stpm? o jz go to work? lol.. don b so bei guan.. i blieve i cn as long as i hardworking enuf.. wil hav muet test during oct.. bt nt sure wat day.. hehe.. x nd to say tt day d car accident make my parents scold me.. n spent rm500 to repair d car.. ppl car oli car plate gt a lil rosak.. lol.. my mum don dare to let me drive liao.. :p lol.. she say my driving skill nt gd y stil wan go so far to hav supper? 8 3rd miles o hui sing thr gt supper to eat y nd to go til so far.. lol... ya ya.. nt wrong oso.. n i follow d car too cloz edi.. hehe.. tts my fault i noe.. after reading py's blog.. thking tt y gt such ppl in d world ho?? jz a lil money nd to count lik tt.. ppl nt don wan to pay.. jz nt yet collect o d money.. u noe wat.. when i heard hw much d money ppl owe him.. jz lik.. OMG.. rm4 sumthg nia... nd to b lik tt ma?? jz lik ppl owe him a few thousand.. n yet stil wan to say ppl bad word in blog.. n stil wan to put d name big big.. i nvr c such ppl b4.. haizz.. luckily i nt so cloz wif him.. n he let me thk tt even xian jieh is much mol better den him. lol.. hemmm.. suddently so miss my moo moo.. hehe.. n oso my ns frens...

hungry...

hemm.. i m getting lazy n lazy to update my blog.. hehe.. dono y? lol.. nw i vry d hungry.. lol.. hehe.. rely hungry la.. hemm.. wat i wan to say? dono ooo.. hehe.. tiz few days i din study much... bo xim leh.. lol.. i wana go ktv... bt.. i nd to control myself.. coz.. i wil hav exam jz after d holidays.. oli few days left edi.. haizzzzz... yest.. hemm.. izit yest? shud b la.. hehe.. went out wif jen them go watch movie.. forget d name.. i thk quite nice bt fei say she watch d movie til wana slp.. lol... we saw mr.goh 8 thr.. sungai maong de teacher.. hehe.. nt vry cloz wif him.. bt so you yuan de he watch same movie n oso sit same row wif us leh.. lol.. after tt go to a cafe.. hemmm.. wat name liao ha? forget edi.. d environment quite nice,jz d drinks so so expensive, i thk hav omoz same price wif starbucks cofe's drinks.. n u guys noe la.. i lik to try new thg.. den i try green mocha.. oh gosh.. so so n so nt delicious.. o mayb for me nt delicious la.. coz i don lik d mint tt they put.. so nt match wif d mocha.. n d drinks is too sweet edi.. after tt.. i hav gastric.. haha.. n i oso hav headache after bck home.. mayb is coz of raining gua.. hehe..

一个人。。

一个人。。。还没说完。。一个人睡觉。。哈哈。。今晚送我姐去机场，虽说三个月就回来了，但还是有点不舍。。嘻嘻。。
hemmmmm.. frens... nd trust.. wifout trust.. den d frenship is a ntg.. y don i try to trust her? n oso trust myself? giv sum confidence ok?? i trust her n i oso trust myself.. she k bout me de... jz her way nt d same.. hehe.. trust urself my dear... jz take it easy.. hehe.." can angry but must learn to forgive also.. forgive her at the same time forgive yourself.." nd to owes remind myself bout tt.. hehe.. my dear.. i stil hav u.. i nvr loss u.. rely thx to sang sang.. dono y? hehe..
guys.. pls owes remind me tt don do thgs tt i wil regret after tt..
nw vry vry happy... coz.. dono.. hehe.. one mol thg is... my stpm oli start after my birthday!!! hohoho.. i jz check it.. start 8 23th of nov.. hohohoho... so happy bout tt..

emo...

hemmm.. go out 2day.. hehe.. n so guai de.. 2nite so early bck home.. jz 11 sumthg i thk.. hehe.. watch a movie.. cnt say nice o nt.. jz nt bad bt nt nice oso.. lol.. act gt sum emo.. bt.. dono.. hehe.. sumtime thk tt myself so weird.. if i feel emo den i wil laugh mol happy.. sumhw lik wan to forget my pro by laughing.. sumtime i jz emo n jz look emo.. hemmm.. i noe my sentense sound weird.. bt... hemmm..jz dono wat to say.. hehe.. many ppl owes say i thk too much?? m i?? i don thk so.. many ppl say me vry slow, which mean i wun find out wat happen myself til d thg happen til so serious den i wil noe.. so.. when i found sumthg wrong tts mean thgs go vry serious edi rite?? o i oli sensitive to wat i k so i owes thk too much on wat i k... dono.. its vry hurt.. i dono y she change so fast.. o she jz return to d original her.. jz lik i had nvr appear in her life.. jz lik a stranger in her life.. jz lik we nvr fren b4.. wat shud i do?? to save bck our frenship? m i nt gd enuf? nt enuf gd for others to treat me as a fren.. they owes said if thgs go wrong don blame others, blame ourself.. it is our fault when thgs go wrong.. everythg happen wif its reasons.. wat hav i done til i nt appretiate by others, m i nt enuf zhi ge?
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风说：“我不敢打开我的心房因为我怕受伤。。”
风说：“我怕别人拒绝因为会很受伤。。”
风说：“我不想当我把我的好意给人时，别人都拒绝，我会很受伤。。所以从不在同一个地方逗留。。”
叶子说：“风。。 那么我已经被你伤的遍体鳞伤了。。"
叶子说：“我打开了我的心房，我被拒绝了无数次，我的好意被当成了透明。。我的心被燃烧了， 却再度被浇灭。。一次又一次，一次又一次，不知多少遍了，却还傻傻相信着。。相信着那未知的未来。。相信着，你会带我走。。可剩下的，只有，无声的哭泣。。。”
可是，风已走了，没听到叶子的心声，也不知道，叶子的等待，叶子的期待。。

伤心。。。

今天，我哭了。。 从中学开始，我只在班流过一次眼泪，今天。。今天，是第二次。。我忍不住在班上哭了。。是因为我自己的多疑吧。。因为一句话，那或许是她的玩笑吧。。可是，我的心好痛。。好痛。。她可是我的朋友啊。。我竟怀疑她。。可是。。我不知道，我真的不知道。。她向我道歉了，可她没解释，是因为伤害了我而道歉，还是，因为她的玩笑而道歉。。她是认真的吗？我不知道。。明知道她不善于解释，是不是我误会她了？？她说她不在乎。。是不在乎我？还是不在乎其他的？

hehe..

i change my blog layout yest nite.. coz too late edi so din update my blog.. hehe.. using my coffee...... as background.. beautiful leh..... hehe.. bt i cn find bck d shoutmix box.. so.. nvm ba.. hehe.. hemmm.. i wil hav my exam after holidays which mean... i cnt hav fun during d holidays.. haizz.. bcum so lazy to update my blog lo... dono y?? 3min re du.. stil rmb laz time when i jz write my blog, everyday i wil update.. no matter gt thg to write o nt?? jz update.. hehe.. py cloz her blog le.. for many days le... she said.. too many ppl read her blog edi so she cloz it.. haizzz.. wat i wan to say ho?? dono.. hehe.. my eldest sis n my younger sis r sick.. dono is bcoz of me o d virus my sis bring frm jb.. fever leh... for 2days edi lo... hw?? nd to ge li le.. so me x nd go to sch tml.. lol.. thk too much.. suddently so miss my moo moo.. dono y?? lol.. moo moo gt miss me ma?? anywhr he din read my blog.. sally mummy... i miss u so much.... wana c u as soon as posible.. hope so.. hehe.. wait ha... i oso miss jen...... houz de my lotion.. haha.. l8r jen wana kill me liao.. :p hehe..jen ah.... gt miss me ma?? gt leh.. 2 weeks din c me liao... hemmm.. shud b don hav.. she miss another person so don hav time to miss me.. haizz.. jealous.. lol... wat i toking bout nw?? lol.. o nonsense.. anywhr i lik to say it as simple.. simple is xin fu... hohoho...

好幸福哦。。。

今天看了一篇报道。。一对夫妻，不愿领养自己的女儿，在法庭上，母亲当着女儿的面前扬言如果把女儿判给她就把女儿弄死。。 难道那位十三岁的女孩不会心碎吗？ 我发现我真的好幸福。。 加油哦，小女孩。。 虽然你父母不要你， 但世界上还是有很多人会珍惜你的。。
hemmm.. tis few days owes sick sick sick.. headache la.. flu la... haizzz.. everythg cum 2gether.. i wonder when i so weak.. hoho.. 2day i go kch fest again.. hehe.. go wif my family, bring my sis go.. hehe.. vry full again.. haizz.. no wonder i getting vry sick, nt yet recover den go eat fried thg again.. lol.. hemmm.. vry sry to heard tt one teacher pass away, othough i dono who is tt teacher, bt sry for tt..

wat a fun n crazy nite...

hoho.. jz finish take bath.. hehe.. go to kch fest den go westwood to eat.. hehe.. laugh til crazy... hoho... n vry fun oo.. n oso vry vry fulllllllll... lol... athena, sang sang, n jen wif me.. lady's nite.. hoho.. n sry tt i lazy to upload pic.. so go fb thr to c.. jen wil post.. coz.. she vry free compare to us.. hoho.. tell u oo.. athena gt a new nick name.. hoho.. is.. dolphin, noe y? coz.. she saw an aeroplane shape de ballon 8 kch fest bt she call tt dolphin.. haha.. n we kp on teasing her on tt.. haha.. i buy two egg tarts back home for my family.. they say nt enuf full ooo.. wat to do?? i don hav so many money leh.. hehe.. den after we eat 8 westwood we go bck to kch fest again to pick jen's bro.. when jen tok to her bro wif hp.. i thk of myself.. i found tt sumtime i oso so fiece to my younger sis.. i don lik jen treat her bro lik tt.. bt i stil treat my sis lik tt.. hw cum?? dono leh... jz bu zhi bu jue wil bcum so fiece to her.. hemmmm.. nd to change.. hehe.. i wan to bcum a nice sis.. hehe.. n my poor eldest sis.. cnt go kch fest, she bck frm jb 8 16th of august, d kch fest cloz 8 15th of august, so kolian... lol..

melting....

tis few days vry HOTTTTTT ahhhhhh... rely melting lo... d haze pro again.. make me feel vry uncomfortable.. feel lik wana sick edi.. haizzz.. act tt day sick edi.. headache n feel wana vomit.. mayb gastric pro.. haizzz... raining god ah... do u listen to my song??? i sing for many days edi oooo.. y nt yet rain??? haizzzzz

心。。。

halo guys.. hehe.. i tell u guys oo.. i found tt i growing fatter n fatter.. 2day i go weight myself n.. OMG!!! 65kg!!! haizzzz.. hehe.. nd kp fit edi.. 2day hav a national phy quiz... lol.. cn say o left blank.. hehe.. anywhr jz to get d cert.. so reality.. lol...
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心痛痛痛进心里
曾经的热情已不再
取而代之的只有无情与冷漠
曾经被燃起的希望
被冷血的破灭了
救生圈被无情的刺破
心
挣扎
沉入海底
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心
搁浅
希望被海水带回海里
让满满的关怀再次包围
浪花一次又一次的激起
一次又一次地靠近
让心
一次又一次的燃起希望
然而
每一次都没被带走
一次又一次希望被破灭
泪一滴一滴掉入海里
默默默默的祈求海水
带它回去
海水似没看见般
一次又一次无情的忽视
很久很久
泪枯了
心死了。。。。。。

简单的。。

我也只是想要简单的友情。。
没有背叛
没有利用
没有抛弃
只有
简简单单的友情
简简单单的快乐
简简单单的旅程
简简单单的欢笑

偷了人家的句子，嘻嘻。。想和大家分享。。

人人为我
我为人人
我不为人人
人人也不为我
自私是因为自私而引起的。。
这是偷来的句子，希望不介意。。

自以为是。。

guess wat.. 2day gt ppl cum my houz sell ice cream.... u guys noe la ho?? tt one pader pop pader pop.. dono spell lik tis o nt?? den i bring my younger sis go to buy ice cream.. den.. d halker try to tok to me lo.. he say........... ur kid?? OMG!!! my kid??? i stil so young... nt a mum.. tts my younger sis leh... haizzz... lol.. jz nw chat wif sang she said tt she wan to slp earlier to kp herself young n fresh.. hemmmm.. no wonder i look so old la... coz laz nite i slpt 8 2.30 i thk... hehe... haizzz... jie kou.. hoho.. yest go badminton wif jen sang n one fren tt long time no c.. is doreen oo..... lol... miss her.... den go tui laz nite.. hemmm.. 2day i eat spegati for my whole day.. lunch n dinner.. nt whole day la ho? 8 least nt breakfast.. so nice... hehe... den afternoon go tui.. during half way to tui tui center cal me n said tt 2day tui cancel.. reason nt sure.. hehe.. shud said i forget wats d reason edi.. hehe.. den back home lo... 2day din study for d whole day.. except morning.. i watched d laz vampire 2day oo.. hehe..
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人生中有太多的自以为是
自以为是的认为
自以为是的猜测
自以为是的发表
这让太多的误会产生
所以
我常常提醒自己
别太自以为是了
你不知道的时刻多着呢
哈哈。。
有个故事，不知道大家听过吗？？
有一位医生值夜班，当晚凌晨两点有个人因车祸受伤，那位医生自觉地认为，这么年轻，有这么晚发生车祸，肯定是飙车一族。。所以处理伤口时特别粗鲁，认为他活该，要让他受多点罪。。那年轻人感到非常痛，但他始终咬紧牙关，不出一声。。其实背后的故事是这样的。。那位少年，因家境的关系，一天打三份工，晚上到夜店打工，因此才这么晚回家，而车祸是因为他为了要就一只小狗才发生的。。那位医生，当了医生，却也把自己变法官了。。他自认为是的要给他人一点惩罚，但他的自以为是却让无辜的他人受了更多的委屈和痛苦。。

懒惰。。。

懒惰的我。。好久没写博客了。。哈哈。。有些事，不知该讲还是不该。。算了吧。。别多事，多事往往出事。。哈哈。。心情总像坐着过山车，忽高忽低的。。好讨厌。。以前，熬夜滋味了我最爱的电影和小说，现在熬夜只为了温书。。哈哈。。变好多哦。。没有再像以往般的疯狂，没有玩乐，只有乏味的生活，重复的过着每一天。。我也好想一个人去旅行。。背包旅行。。去埃及，去法国，去蒙古，去非洲，去德国，去澳洲还有好多好多，对了，还有北极和南极。。去登山，去潜水，骑脚车去旅行。。哈哈。。人没去旅行，在这里让思想去旅行。。也还不错。。
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冷气房里
冰冻了我的手脚
也冰冻了我的心
无声的夜
却没让我的心安静
思想
飞翔着
希望有个着落的地方
梦
始终闯不进我的睡眠
只好
又拿起冰冷的书
让它们陪伴我
过冰冷的夜晚。。。
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hemmmm.... 我写华语时都很悲吗？没办法。。心情只有用华语才能描写出来。。英文不行。。英文差。。嘻嘻。。

sick...

haizzz.. rely sick edi.. my younger sis start 1st.. flu.. i get flu 2day.. :(.. when i tui.. n yet i hav headache.. den after bck home i jz eat den go slp liao... til bout8pm i thk.. i din take lunch 2day.. hoho.. kp fit.. den vry hungry after tui.. mayb tt cause me to hav headache.. haizzz.. so 2nite slp early.. othough edi 11+.. hehe.. tml morning might nd to drive my bro to padungan.. long time din c jen so wana ask her go for breakfast o watever.. hehe.. bt dono whether i gt drive my bro ma?? so stil nd comfirm tml.. hehe.. tts all.. i seem long time din update my blog.. y?? lazy? mayb.. hohoho..

tues.. tml holiday...

hohoho.. tml is holiday.. act is hari sukan bt i din join any so x nd to sch.. oli thurs nd go for d che quiz.. hemmm.. fri gt phy extra claz de act bt cancel edi... tml chinese club wil go hari sukan to sell sumthg to hav mol fund for d club.. feel lik go support them bt.. i don thk my mum allow.. so.. nvm ba.. plus oil oo.. new batch de ppl.. we din did well for our yr so i hope u guys wil do well for tt.. hehe.. muet results cum out lo.. yesterday.. n dissapointed wif d result.. band 2.. cn't imagine.. hemmm.. den i start to blame tis n tt.. start to blame d teacher y don let us sit laz yr bcoz old syllibas mol easy.. den start to blame d examiner tt giv us speaking test.. wat else i blame??? hemmm.. bt after tt i thk.. y i blame o tis n tt?? i get band2 bcoz my eng poor bt nt tis n tt.. others cn get band 5 n even band6.. bt y nt me?? tt jz bcoz my eng vry poor bt nt others.. don kp on blaming again.. i shud responsible on my own result bt nt others who nd to b responsible on it.. i wan to study harder n harder.. i don wan myself to regret.. i noe i cn do it bt i jz lazy.. den after tt i wil blame tis n tt again when i cn't score.. wat attitude is tt?? haizz.. hemmm.. thx for everyone who support me n owes thr to plus oil for me.. thx oo.. thx sang sang.. oh ya.. one mol thg.. y ppl owes lik tt.. say tt don lik tis n tt bt he o she themself doin d thg tt they themself don lik while aspect(dono spell lik tis o nt?)others nt to do so.. n tt kind of person include me.. i owes remind myself when comment on others, i tell myself tt i oso din do such well y i aspect so much frm others.. me myself oso do wrong n i don hav d rite to ask others to do it correct.. haizz.. wat a wrong attitude.. lol.. nd to improve.. tis is d 3rd week my sis 8 JB.. quite miss her lo.. cn't use to it when she is bt bside us.. when having dinner wil feel.. haizz.. less one ppl.. nd to wait til nov i thk to hav dinner together.. suddently feel lik so miss my sally mummy susan aunty chui lin n o my ns frens.. r u oso missing me 8 d same time?? hehe..

saturday..

hemmm.. i seem to hav a long time din touch pc edi.. y?? bcoz mum nt allow?? i don thk so.. coz if mum nt allow i oso wil touch.. lol.. continue laz week.. my mood nvr try to bcum better.. everyday moody everyday feel lik don hav energy.. y?? dono again.. too many dono in my life edi.. when i wil giv d ans?? dono again.. agree wif sang sang.. i don wan to grow up.. bt i hav to.. thr r too many unknown in my life in my future n nw i dono hw to step to d front.. feel lik don dare to ahead again.. bt.. i hav to.. feel so 茫然.. 我发觉我迷路很久了。。是我不想出去面对我不知道的世界吗？？害怕了吗？？是的。。我承认。。我害怕了。。害怕我走不出。。害怕我一而再，再而三的令我身边的人失望。。我明白。。生活是为了自己。。但。。他们就是我的一部分。。我割舍不了。。也忽略不了。。感觉。。我活着是为了他们。。我需要勇气。。需要决心。。需要。。更多。。我知道谁也帮不了我。。谁也给不了我。。能帮我的人是我自己。。我好想只到这边就好。。到这边就好。。。泪留不下。。放不下。。
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没有星星的夜晚
只有月亮在唱独角戏
我问
你孤单吗？
你说
不
看不到
不代表他们不在身边
我不也在你身边吗？
你问
那我呢？
我说
我也知道他们在身边
我却还是孤单着
你说
是我太贪心了
要学会满足
我问
要如何才学会呢？
你说
你不会教我
我必须自己学
我说
好，我学
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舞台上
我在唱独角戏
把自己封闭的是我
却在责怪他人的不靠近
别人放弃了
后悔着挽回不了的感情
告诉自己千万别让自己后悔
却还是一直让自己后悔
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太阳高高在上
没有其他的陪伴
我问
你孤单吗？
你说
是的
你孤单
我问
你不是还有其他行星的陪伴吗？
你说
他们都不靠近你
我说
是你自己太炫耀你的光芒了
才让别人进不了你的世界
你老羞成怒的问
我不也是很孤单吗？
我说
是啊
我忘了
我又有什么资格说人呢？
只是我太封闭自己
而你是太炫耀自己
但结果都是一样的
孤单。。
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唱独角戏的我
发现
我抢了别人的舞台
那
我的舞台呢？
在那里？

wednesday leh..

hemmm.. guess wat.. 2day i hav 3 quiz.. 2nd n 3rd period hav pa quiz,4th n 5th period hav mx1 quiz,n after sch hav a che quiz.. lol.. anywhr i din study hard.. hemm.. tml ah liang wil go to australia lo.. 2day gt a fair well dinner bt den i cn't go.. hehe.. hemm.. wat i wan to say liao ho?? i forget edi leh.. lol.. fei ah.. hao xin ni take k a bit la.. me c liao wil xim tia leh.. haizzz.. oh ya.. arang road gt a student kena A(H1N1).. my bro de bsb partner.. her sis kena den his turn nw.. bt omoz recover edi.. lol.. every1 take k oo.. hemm.. i wana recomment sum song to u guys hr.. named 我知道我变漂亮了。。还有。。singderella.. i lik tt.. hehe.. guys.. i suddently found tt i m nt a kid anymol.. i cn't b 任性 lik kids anymol.. i nd to b responsible for wat i did wat i say wat i thk edi.. cn't jz 耍赖 lik kids anymol.. i jz realise tt time rely flies.. mayb bcoz ah liang wana go australia edi.. lol.. so suddently feel tt.. wah.. five yrs clazmate edi leh.. 将来，我们要走自己的路了。。没有朋友的陪伴。。只有陌生与孤独。。虽然。。心里会一直有着朋友们。。但。。还是分开了。。原来。。我们都长大了。。好舍不得。。

lazy..

hemmm.. tis days seem to b lazy to write blog.. when i feel wan to write blog i don hav pc to use, when i cn use d pc den i feel lik lazy to write.. so ppl.. don mind la ho?? hemmm.. act gt thg to say la.. wana say for many days edi.. bt owes forget.. hemmm.. hw to start? i found tt i owes want others to follow my ways.. o mind is mol accurate coz sumtime i oso cn't do tt bt still want others to do so.. i m scolding o blaming others tt cn't satisfy my own mind whr as i oso cn't do tt.. my eng nt so gd.. dono u guys cn understand wat i m toking bout ma?? hehe.. coz my pc stil cn't use bc.. hemmm.. jz nw watch sum short drama.. quite romantic.. a lady wif aids bt d guy stil wan b wif her wifout regret.. so romantic.. even tt gal owes reject bt tt guy oso wun giv up.. he blieve in miracle.. do u blieve?? ppl owes say tt oli appear in drama o wat ever bt i thk tt if we believe den it wil bcum true.. ofcoz we muz put effort on it 1st.. lol.. same opinion wif sang.. hemm.. tok bout 2day.. i wake up by my mum early in d morning jz to send my bro to tt wat wat wat meeting.. tao yan de bo... haizz.. bt hav to drive him oso.. den i jz go library.. read novel half do revision half.. lol.. hehe.. den i shud pick my bro 8 12 de den take him go study wif me.. who noe he went for movie den i go pick him 8 5sumthg.. den i go eat abc wif jen n fei.. quite nice.. hehe.. lol.. say ntg to write stil write so many thg.. hehe.. oh ya.. i to watch performance-"wu deng" on sat.. quite nice bt sum boring.. hemm.. dono y i cn't feel high on tt day.. n owes feel moody lo.. oh ya.. forget to say tt~tt fucking car!!! knock my car til my side mirror broken.. den every1 thk tt is my fault.. every1 thk tt is i drive my car too over.. damn fucking car!!! cn't c wat car coz drove to fast n tt time is raining gok.. y is my fault??? ok.. fine.. i din say tt i totally don hav responsible on tt.. bcoz i too slow bcoz i too blur so tts my fault oso.. rite??? i admit tt.. ok.. haizz.. bb.. cya next time..

my pc bck lo.. hoho..

halo guys.. oli few days din on9 nia bt feel lik ages din on9 edi.. haizzz.. hemmm.. few lik many thg to write lo.. bt den.. dono wat to write nw.. lol.. hemm.. guys.. cn help me?? coz my pc go reformat den o thgs gone.. i mean d msn la.. n cn't use mandarin nw.. ppl.. cn teach me hw to install?? :(

终于

哈哈。。终于让我找到华语了。。嘻嘻。。不过真难用。。
算了。。我也忘了我要说设么。。

boring day..

i gt new members for librarians lo.. hehe.. bt stil dono who cn continue my post.. haizzz... lazy.. hemm.. tis afternoon go out wif jen.. go eat lunch.. we tok bout go west malaysia study.. i say i wana go west malaysia oso.. hehe.. to c my frens.. missing u guys.. den jen ask me go kl wif her.. den cn live 2gether.. hemm.. bt after tt i thk.. live outside even cheap oso nd money leh.. so live 8 hostel better.. x nd pay.. x nd k live thr gd o nt.. oli one yr wat.. hehe.. hemmm.. 2day ppl say me:"wu liao" .. lol.. act i owes say by ppl lik tt.. anywhr.. bcoz life is boring jz den wil do boring thg wat.. hehe.. as long as i happy.. don k hw ppl look 8 me.. even ppl owes say i m childish.. hehe.. bt.. m i rely happy?? o tt jz my mask?? to cover my real face.. haizz.. don hav bc to type so hard la.. dono hw to translate into eng.. oh ya.. i read a fren blog.. i lik his blog.. bt sry tt i stil cn't share wif u ppl coz i stil nt yet get his permission.. hehe.. mayb u guys wil thk tt his blog jz lik usual.. bt dono y i jz lik it.. no reason.. jz lik i lik agnes.. haha.. wifout reason.. bt oli dan chun de xin shang her.. nt tt kind of lik.. don thk too much.. hoho.. wana to write sumthg wif mandarin.. bt tis laptop i dono hw to use mandarin.. so din write.. my pc stil nt yet cum bck.. haiz.. den i wil forget edi.. lol..

long time din write blog lo.....

long time don hav pc to use lo.. nw oso using my sis laptop.. haizz.. my pc stil 8 hospital leh... hw cn lik tt.. damn shop la.. my sis wil go jb on sat edi.. miss her?? dono oo.. hemmm.. dono hw many days i din update my blog edi.. many days gua.. gt many too write gua.. bt nw.. shud 4get o edi.. my eggs sprained her hand during she went training.. take k ah.. wat had happen tis days tt i din write my blog ho?? dono leh.. i forget edi la.. i oli noe tt my mood damn bad.. i don even noe wat i angry for.. dono y my mood so down n tt make me mol down.. my che nt yet present leh.. n tis few days i owes say thg tt vry weird i mean suddently i thk of wat den i jz say out.. totally don hav relation wif wat i say b4.. my mum say me so weird.. lol.. n wat i wan to say ho?? hemm.. 2day gt an interview for those librarian for aiming higher post.. n teacher wan us to b serious.. den.. noe wat.. bout 10+ person interview for one librarian leh.. i thk tt librarian having huge pressure when facing us ba.. n gt sum1 complain to teacher tt we so fierce.. lol.. gt meh?? no leh.. haha.. den i demo for d new librarian to show hw to handle when gt ppl bring bag into library n don wan to listen.. lol.. funny.. hemmm.. wats else?? tml wil hav a che experiment n d experiment seem so hard leh.. even 3 periods cn't finish.. hw ho?? cn't copy d ans frm others class oso coz teacher giv different solution.. haizzz.. hemm.. wat else i wana say?? hemmm.. moody.. n dono hw to explain y m i moody.. haizzzz... so tired.. jz d 2nd week i start sch.. y i feel so tired?? dono again.. tis fri is goin to giv out my post in bc club lo.. hohoho... den sat wil hav zhu hun.. hehe.. so qi dai..oh ya.. forget to say tt i found tt my mail gt bout 300 leh.. oli bout one week din open nia.. so kua chang.. hemm.. o frm facebook de.. y u guys write so many comments oo???

谁对谁非？？？

已经不一样了
已经变质了。。
我不是当事人
我不明白她们想什么
因为她
我认识她
但现在
她和她已不复从前了
而我
现在却在中间
到底谁对谁非？？
我真的不知道
只知道
她们已不屑之间的感情了
她们已不再为彼此而努力了
因为她们都认为彼此都不珍惜了
一心想要做和事佬的我
几乎把事情给搞砸了。。
我累了
我已不知道
我还能做什么了
不管我做了什么
说了什么
却都无济于事。。
心在痛
却已无能为力了。。
朋友。。
不要再迷迷糊糊
一副不管要紧的模样了
会伤害他人的
朋友。。
别一味的索取
还当那是理所当然
朋友。。
请别一味否定她所在意的友情
她只是没表现出她在乎而已
别因为如此
而放弃了之前所做的努力
朋友。。
请别太在意他人的拒绝
每个人
都有拒绝的权力
不管你付出多少
朋友。。
我知道说的容易
做的难
但
我们再一起努力好吗？
我好想
好像
像以前那样
真的好想。。