after read my fren's blog, feel so 开朗.. ^^ ppl life style seem so 多姿多彩。反观自己的大学生活好像很无聊呢。。 宝吟，真的谢谢你的恶心。。 最近生活好像很灰暗，你的一句话让我灰暗的世界，有了那一点的光亮。。让我觉得，我至少还有你们。。 爱你们～ XD

p/s: py.. tis time shud b rite le ba.. XD

crazy thg i did for tis sem!!!

hemmm.. drive to jb myself, without gps, n just bring my roommate after go minyak beku 摸鱼.. tt time is 6pm and bck to home by 12am.. geng? i oso vry pei fu myself for my braveness.. after tt, the day b4 my surveying test, i went to kluang wif 3 crazy ppl, andy, pp n my roommate.. jz go thr turn round n round.. oh ya.. gt a cafe open recently 8 my area n it said tt cn compare wif melaka nadege 千层蛋糕.. bt after i go tried, i so so so so disappointed... n frm tt day i vry desperate to go melaka nadege.. n 2day, i did it. XD go wif tt 3 crazy person again n plus soon.. spend nt much.. n satisfy.. enjoy my life to max!!! next, wil nd to b serious on study le.. play hard n oso study hard!!!

这才是真正好吃的千层蛋糕！！

five insane ppl!!! XD

做人一定要经得起谎言，

受得起敷衍，忍得住欺骗，

忘得了承诺，放得下一切，

最后用笑来伪装掉下来的眼泪，

越是忍住眼泪，越是会变成幸福的良药。。

离开家，总是要面对不同的人。 没有家的庇护，我还剩下什么？
总有很多事发生，也越让我觉得人心恐怖，我还没做好准备吗？
是我太单纯？还是其实我也和其他人一样，只是自己不自知而已。
挂着笑容过着我的每一天，以为自己很快乐，却发现，原来心是空的。
原来自己也被笑容欺骗了。
没有目标，漫无目的的过着每一天。
却也盼望着有个人在身边陪伴我走每一步。
同时却也希望心是静止的，不为任何人波动。。
我真的很迷茫。。。

sem break at kl

sry jen.. promise you wil update my blog after i bck to johor bt til nw jz update. 10 days at kl and over budget. bt rely hav a nice moment wif jen. thx for everythg.. thx for bring me go eat hao liao, bring me go movies, bring me go shopping and so on.. forget jor whr hav we been tt 10days jz rmb tt i hav a nice memories wif u.. ^^ i noe u miss me.. we goin to meet le.. don wory.. XD

21st birthday...

grow up edi? ya.. i m adult edi.. free? ya.. free edi.. bt don mean tt i cn do watever i lik, jz tt frm nw own, i would nd to b responsible wif watever i do..

gt my birthday presents.. ^^ thx..

choc lava 8 secret.. nice.. damn love it.. thx for my beloved sis.. ^^

present frm my dear.. thx.. ^^

present frm andy, pp n soon.. thx..my 1st beer in my 21st..

present frm beloved jen.. thx.. i noe is blur.. my phone lauzy.. hehe.. bo bian..

那些年，我们一起追的女孩。。

现在还在吉隆坡，本来以为会回去才写部落格，可是现在却很想写。。

今天，是我第二次看那些年，‘u r the apple of my eyes’，翻译成华语却是你是我的唯一，看了这部戏两次了，两次都被感动了。不知道为什么，就是被感动了。不同阶乘看这部戏，我相信会有不一样的感觉。。我过几天就二十一岁了，没有真正的谈过恋爱，却有真心的去暗恋过人，保持着暧昧关系，却没有勇气去踏出下一步。
有句活从朋友那里抄来
‘现实的时光没有像电影一样，一个镜头就是两年后。所以你不会知道这两年内你想她几轮，你哭了几回，你握紧你的手机几次，一个镜头感受不到，那就经历吧。经历你在阳台的眼泪，经历你在成双人群里的寂寞，经历你听到的传闻，经历，经历她和他的幸福，经历，那些年你们的回忆。’
觉得这应该是我看这部戏之所以如此感触的地方吧。。
看了之后，就一直在想，如果当初，他鼓起勇气去听那个答案，是否结局就不一样？ 如果当初，他鼓起勇气牵起她的手，是否结局就不一样？
可是，想想后，觉得，谁能知道结局是什么呢？或许会是好在一起，可是最后却分开呢？如此是不是失去了一个好朋友？失去一个值得回忆的暧昧关系？
未来真的很迷茫。。。我不晓得我会为你掉泪吗？不晓得我会为你心痛吗？我不晓得我一年会想你几回？不晓得两年会想你几回？但是。。以后，我会一直一直想起你。。就像电影里的他心里的她。。

那些年，你又曾为了他做过什么？

awesome uni life~

this sem i really have a awesome uni life. yest 12am, should be 2day edi. we go sing k again, and this time we went bcoz of celebrating my birthday. really a big surprise! i totally dont know about this, and when they send in the cake i kp asking, hemm.. whose birthday 2day? after that just know that is a pre-birthday for me. waiting for frens to upload pic.. bt dono tt person hardworking or nt? hopefully he will post after read my blog. lol.. after that, we go for mcd breakfast at 4am. n during the breakfast, gt a fren kp 耍宝，it was so so so funny.poh poh~ great to hav fren lik u.. ^^ and we laugh lik mad in the mcd for none stop. after bck home den we continue with cards play-heart attack. who lost den wil hav punishment. my fren act as pink panther and tt was so funny. hahaha. rely a crazy life. bt nw lack of slp and start to feel sick. tml early in the morning i wil nd to take bus and start my kl journey. jen jen.. meet u soon~

p/s: thx every1 who celebrate birthday for me. rely appreciate that. nice to have you ppl in my uni life. in this boring and annoying uni, i stil hav u ppl who cn acc me.. muackzzzz...^^

烦心~

总有一些不如意的事情。
睁一只眼闭一只眼已成了惯性。
心机，你有我也有，分分钟比你们厉害。
只是我懒惰。懒得耍心机。
我一点也不单纯，我懂得也很多。
只是我喜欢简单，把自己也变得简单。
我过我要的简单日子，你们就继续你们的复杂日子。
最后的赢家始终是我，只因为我比你们放得开。

人与人之间连最基本的信任都没有，算是朋友吗？
把最简单的信任交出去后，绝不后悔。
即使得到的是背叛，也是因为自己看错人不是吗？
没有必要把所有的过错都推到别人身上。

就是喜欢简单直接，躲躲藏藏的还是我自己吗？

movie again~

In Time!!! nice movie.. love the main character,a handsome guy.. one word,帅!!! XD hemmm.. after coming here for about one and a half months, i watch 3 movies and go for 3 times k-box.. quite many huh? hehe.. 2day my sis birthday, secret recipe, earrings, and also a cactus for her. oh ya, and also kfc n red eggs. ^^ bought 6 cactus yesterday and give one to her. love cactus. for no reason. cactus tough, even not really take care of them, they still survive. treat them soft, if hurt them you will also get hurt.

i m broke..

wednesday, had my 1st test at my 3rd sem. law test. after that, celebrate houzmate's birthday at ktv again. lol. from 10pm till 3pm with all houzmate and oso andy's geng. secret recipe cake and rm27 for sing k. after k go out wif fren again. bt nt goin far. jz a simple ride. n hav a hug frm him. n rely thx for tt. a hug equal to a petrol station for me. i nd it sumtime. u noe who r u rite? and broke oso le. T.T i nd to save money for bali trip leh. goin to muar next sun. shud wun spend too much. bought a book 2day, 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. a nice book n cost for rm22.. haiz. rely broke jor lo.

read py blog, and.. i miss home again. missing the time when i hold mummy n daddy hand during outing.

crazy night on sunday~

have a really crazy night on sunday~ i just realize that i can have my crazy life at parit raja. is like wohoo!!!! its awesome! decided to have a movie at 9.40pm, real steel, a nice movie. at first decided go with pei cheng only, but at last still asked andy and poh poh go together, maybe i think to have a driver. hahaha. just kidding. Andy, happy now? your name appear in my blog. XD and guess what, after movie is about 12am already and we decided go sing k at the midnight. cool~ i love it. sing from midnight till 3am, by the way, forget to say that we have a morning 8.30am class on monday. poh poh voice just nice~ hehe.. after sing k we went to minyak beku( a beach near batu pahat ) to have a view of sunrise. it was so crazy, omg! i have a long talk with poh poh for the whole night till about 6 something if i not mistaken. but sunrise at the different direction. lol.. and after that, we all still went to the class and the class is till 5pm. of course we have break in the middle. haha.. but after that i have a serious panda eyes. XD and i think not all my housemate know that i not going home at that night. hahaha.. want to say that nice to have you all in my university life, without you people my uni life will be damn damn damn meaningless and bored!!! muackzzz..

p/s: names appear in my blog are my uni friends. ^^ special explaination to jen jen chew XD

movie~ ^^

never know that i will have such friends at here also, so random like us jen. ^^ go for movie last night at bout 9pm and watch 10.40pm movie if not mistaken. just a random and go for it. love this kind of life and make me miss kuching more. after movie go lim teh till about 2am. *wink* jenjen~ i miss watching movie with you, although you very noisy while watching movie.. hahaha.. by the way, "love you you" is quite nice~ romantic~ you gonna like it if you go watch. hehe.. still remember last time we go for movie at kl? got a romantic english movie, i miss that. XD

p/s: missing you~

来了念书之后，心情总是莫名其妙的低落。。

是想家吗？

appreciate ~~

appreciate what you have~ families and friends.

Damn happy and keep smiling because you say love me~ so sweet~ i will try my best to keep fit! don't return me please~ love you~ you will have a leng lui in your group.. XD

有时候。。

我发现我真的很不了解自己。。

咖啡~

少了糖的咖啡

少了甜甜味道

却多了浓浓的咖啡味

少了你的日子

少了许多微笑

却多了浓浓的寂寞感

苦涩的滋味

留在舌齿间。。

戒指掉了，不是特别贵，心却在痛 。

看到了，心在痛。

我在为她心痛，我做不了什么。

你受伤了吧？痛吗？

你每次都那么勇敢，那么独立，那么坚强，坚强的让人心痛。

每次你都给我依靠，我却什么也给不了你。

只能为你生气，为你心痛，为你掉泪。。。

记得，你还有我。我爱你。。。

妈妈不在身边保护我们，我们要学会保护自己。。

Damn ice cream!

feel guilty because i ate a cup of ice cream yesterday night, should say today about 12.30am before sleep and just now force myself to have 50 times sit up . getting fatter and i need to control myself. every time just can't control myself when i see ice- cream. cant be like this. haiz. and my cough getting serious just because of the ice- cream. :(

hopefully i will have a nice day~ ^^

yesterday night i was at my friend's house without bringing my hand phone. after that jen ask me to call her and i use someone phone to call her. i just realise that i can remember her phone number, jen, you should feel happy with that because i didn't really remember numberssss.. lol.. say the truth, i only can remember yours, my daddy and my mummy no., and also moo moo's. others i really cant remember, can say that i never try to remember others no. lol.. so jen, don angry about i forget what we chat in skype, coz i remember ur hp no. btw, you r the one who owes appear in my blog.. ^^

now i try to use proper english in my blog because i having a course, technical writing which require us to write essay. Damn!!! can i say i hate english? XD by the way, do correct me if i have grammar mistake. :)

a boring weekend~~

alone in room, searching info for ass, listen to songs, a damn boring weekend. yesterday slept at about 6.30am just because of watching anime. Damn!! i back to unhealthy life again. Can't be like that. i need to love myself more. so after assignment then need to sleep. hemmm.. back to the title, boring weekend. morning sleep till 12.15pm, then brunch, after that sleep again. really boring right? after that wake up by friend asking go for basketball. forget how to play, and just simply shoot. aiksss... py ah.. i cant even hit the ring ah.. my friend ask me, u ever play de ma? so ashamed. >< ok.. i admit that i really noob in bsb, only go for a real play for once and lost the game. but still like bsb so much. hehe. oh.. run away from topic again. den after that just back home. dinner just have some bread and 2 eggs. will i get breast cancer? i ate 2 eggs today leh. XD and now updating blog with nonsense, don't know you people will have patient to read till here or not?

p/s: really missing you.. ♥

thinking of you~ ^^

sometime when i say " i m okay", i want someone to look in my eyes, hug me tight and say " i know you are not.." ^^

坚强。。。

放纵自己之后，告诉自己是该坚强了。

面具脱下太久，会忘了如何戴回。

坚强久了，累了，停下来了。

停泊久了却会沉沦，所以是时候启程了。

忘了不该有的软弱，再次戴上面具，出发吧。

坚强才是该有的。。

妈妈也希望我是坚强的吧。。^^

只是。。胃痛啊，放过我吧，我已经很疼自己了。。别来烦我可以吗？我求你了。。T.T

p/s:我爱的你，谢谢你说爱我。。

damn fxxking gastric!!! u r so annoying! stay away frm me!!!!

想说。。。

我爱你，在我还来得及说出口时。。你知道你是谁，没有原因，就是爱你。。真的很爱。。

明白的话请回我一句爱我。。谢谢。。

坚强久了，也是会累的。。。

生病时，总是想很多。。

生病了，

总在这个时候想家。。

告诉自己

哭过就好了，

心却还是在痛，

舔舐着伤口，

把伤口藏起来，

不是坚强，

只是怕被人在伤口上撒盐。。

在陌生的地方，

成了别人的依靠，

却总找不到依靠，

心总是浮浮沉沉，

却总抓不住浮木。

讨厌不必要的误会

因为误会总使友情脆弱

到底是别人想象力丰富？

还是我总让人误会？

是友情本身的问题？

还是误会的问题？

人生总有许许多多的问题

却总有没有答案的问题

"if u hate me, i don't really care. i don't live to please u.""如果你讨厌我，我一点也不介意。我活着不是为了取悦你" vry nice quote. i'm who i'm. nt sum1 else. the original me. so don judge me wif wat i m. 8 least i lik myself, i act as myself. no matter ugly, clumsy, o anythg else, i m jz myself. ^^

不知什么时候开始

对生活的热忱减少了

忘了该有的梦想

不知什么时候开始

对周遭的生活不再那么关心

不知什么时候开始

已逐渐脱离了群体生活

开始慢慢的慢慢的

把自己关起来

活在自己的世界

爱上独自坐在门口看着下雨的情景

让思想放空

走了自己选择的路

却开始迷茫

对妈妈说

我不念了，回去做工

却还是呆在原地踏步

回来没几天，天天打电话

向妈妈撒娇

却忘了当初对自己说要独立

要报喜不报忧。。。

bck to johor :(

far away from my hometown, but i have left my heart at there. trying to adapt my new life here, but keep having new problem. i thought i have independent enough, but i m not. i still want my mummy to cook for me, handle everything for me. feel so helpless at here. i m just a mummy girl. i want to be a mummy girl. :( moody chin~

昨晚

很忽然的，害怕得感觉突袭了我。。

害怕他们会消失在我的世界里，

我很想很想天天就像这样过，

不要再回去那该死的地方，当初固执的要选择的地方，那远离了我最亲爱家人的地方。

我不想离开这里，害怕一离开就再也看不到。

以为二姨的离开并没有带给我任何影响，

可是却带给我深深的胆怯。

就那么一瞬间啊。。我真的在害怕了。。

我总在想象自己掌握着生死簿，删除在死亡簿上不该有的名字。。

p/s: 最近一直在懒惰，习惯了懒惰的日子就不想动了。。抱歉哦。。

dedicated to jen jen chew~ copied from poh yiin lim~ XD

boring life start~

9.45am : "ah ying, wake up!!!"

10.00am: clean up~ lalalalala~ brush teeth, wash face n take bath~~ XD

10.30am : help my mum packing food (home small small business)

11.00am : start the car.. bum bum bum~~~

11.45am : reach working place (sum time nt so chun.. depends on situation of traffic.. )

11.50am : read newspaper~

12.50pm : catch snake~~~ (unless gt customer) XD

5.00pm : hav dinner~

5.30pm : catch snake~~~~ (unless gt customer)

7.50pm : switch off lights n aircond..

7.55pm : pang gang~~

8.00pm : kia kia~ anywhr, sumtime shopping, sumtime go grandma houz

8.55pm : reach my sis working place n wait~~~

9.00pm : sis pang gang~~

9.15pm : home sweet home~~ <3

9.18pm : watch tv programme~~

10-11pm: take bath, depends on tv programme nice ma? XD

11pm : on9~~~

12-2am : ong ong liao.. (depends on tiredness.. )

everyday repeating~~

疑惑于自己的无情，

更讨厌自己的无情。。。

cry like tears from river n laugh lik insane

mayb jz long time din cry, the day b4 laz nite i cried lik tears frm river, non stop. cnt control n jz cried for the whole nite, call my dear n cried to her, jz felt disappointed to myself. nvr ever did thg perfectly, owes bo liang bo juak, bt stil i don change. rejected jen n lied to her, sry dear jen, tt day i nt sick, i call u during crying n i lied to u tt i m sick. jz cnt explain wat happen so i lied to u, sry.. moody so i rejected u.. i noe u wil forgive me rite? XD cried til i fall aslp. 2nd day my eyes swollen lik goldfish's. 2nd day, speak nt even one word to daddy. den 2nite went out wif jen, py, yan, suk ling, bert n angkao.. lol.. long time din c them. whole journey 2nite i jz lik crazy n kp laughing. miss yan n py so so so much!!! n so bert n angkao. oh ya, met dam oso n hav dinner 2gether. hav a great nite! love it.

love hanging out wif u guys..

jen, i love ur smile! :D

心参挟着一丝丝的痛在跳着

跳动着

在痛着

为什么会呢？

找不到原因

只能任由它痛。。。

矜持

什么是矜持？？

我不懂

也不想懂

因为人说

我靠近异性是一种不矜持

是这样吗？

只是朋友而已

有必要吗？

没有主动那来的朋友？

我交朋友从来没有看性别

为什么异性就不能当朋友

如果你说兴趣不同我无话可说

如果你说没有共同的话题我无话可说

可是仅仅一个矜持就要我放弃友情？

原来你们的世界里

友情是那么的脆弱

脆弱的让人难以相信

抱歉

我的友情没有你们的脆弱

我痛恨那些为了无谓的外人观

而割断了友情

背后那些不堪入耳的话

我都懂

不矜持

不知廉耻

什么都有

我不懂的是原来广交朋友在你们眼里是有错的。。

交朋友不是看心吗？

怎么变成看性别了？

是雨

豆大的雨滴冲不走心中凌乱的情绪

哀愁无声无息的来袭

脸上淡淡的笑容掩盖一切

戴了太久的面具

忘了原有的表情

藏了太久的泪水

忘了眼泪是咸的

忽然想一个人

一个人思想

一个人发呆

一个人看书

却又在仰望原有的热闹

有时笑得越开心

心却是越失落

忘了真真快乐是何时？

是夜

让黑暗吞没自己

想忘了

不该有的渴望。。。。

sick...

diarrhea for few days, after tt menstrual pain, den flu n cough oso cum le.. hate myself to b so weak. mentally blank for weeks n weeks. don hav idea, don hav emotion, don hav worry, don hav pressure. wat m i doin? such a zombie.

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站在风中

吹着

没有情绪的风

人说

如果我可以和你一样多好

我说

你羡慕我我也在羡慕你

人永远都那么的贪心

贪心着

那不属于自己的

却都不珍惜

自己所有的

累了。。

走远了，

累了。。

人累了，

心累了，

想留在原地不想动了。。

迷茫了，

没了活力，

是玩太多了吗？

一瞬间，

生活变得无趣了，

活着像个没生命的，

一直重复着，

没有什么事是值得开心的，

也没有什么事实会伤心的。。

我怎么了？？？

真的好累，好累。。。

我想停下来了。。。

烦~

烦啊~ 最近一直在烦。。烦什么 ？

烦功课，烦考试。。

哇，真是奇迹，我也会烦这些。。

在向往着猪的生活。。悲哀。。

还烦，人际关系。。

别人的事也拿来烦。。

果然人太好是不好的。。

人啊，就是复杂的东西，思想复杂，什么都复杂。。

用心对待一个人换来的或许就是背叛。

但或许也是另一个真心对待。

付出太多的，也是受伤最多的。。

但总在不自不觉中付出。。

然后。。。受伤。。。

在我这里的“家”，我竟然看到了四川变脸的表演，或许更精彩吧。。

那时，心都寒了。。

或许以往都活在单纯的世界，从来没到过现实社会。

大学是踏进社会先修班果然是没错。。

我看到了人心的丑陋，庆幸的，我还是有看到人心的美丽。。

害怕着或许有一天，我的心也会变，变得丑陋了。。

我还可以回到我以往的世界吗？

我还可以保留以往的单纯吗？

我讨厌争吵，所以都在把东西看得简单些。

但，人总会得寸进尺。

退一步海阔天空不是吗？

好想，好想。。

一个人静下来。。

藏在自己的空间。。

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受伤了，

把伤口藏起来，

不许要别人的同情，

不许要别人的安慰，

更不许要别人在伤口上再度撒盐。。

受伤了，

不是别人的错，

错在自己，

因为没把自己保护好。。

痛了，

再忍一忍吧，

伤口始终会复原，

久了，

疤痕也会淡化，

淡化后也会遗忘，

又何必耿耿于怀？

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在想。。。

如果明年真的是世界末日。。

我。。。

现在要尽情的享受。。

至少我有生之年。。

快乐过。。

开心过。。

那就足够了。。。

思想

一直在放空

慢慢的

让时间从指尖流逝

忘了

什么才是该关心的

忘了

什么是不该管的

一望无际的视野

心

也往哪飘了

累了

想歇歇

却忘了

还在海中央

只好往下沉

不后悔

因为

或许现在已是最好的结局。。。

放下了，

曾经

他让我留过泪

因为他的不珍惜

曾经

以为放不下的他

已成为生命中过客

曾经

一直绕着我头脑转的他

如今已被遗忘

只有偶尔出现

就像现在

回顾自己的博客

才想起他曾经的出现。。

拿得起，我放的下。。

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曾经

我告诉自己

自己选的路自己负责

曾经

我告诉自己

我不会后悔自己的选择

曾经

我告诉自己

只要活在当下就足够了

曾经

我告诉自己

只要每天开心就足够了

忘了

曾经告诉自己的话

逃避着问题的存在

后悔

不是我一贯的作风

拿得起

放的下

不是潇洒

只是不想

让时间浪费在后悔

过得再苦

我也不后悔。。。

回首，

发现。。

你一直在

你很忙

忘了要偶尔想我

我却一直对你念念不忘

你总是嫌我吵

虽然习惯了

但有时

心还是会点点受伤

忘了何时？

我对你的依赖变得那么深

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把自己关在音乐世界

忽视着身旁的所有

逃避着不想面对的

听着一首又一首的歌

品味着歌词里的每一个字

感叹着

他们唱着我的心

不对。。

忘了

我没有心

被带走了

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tons of assignment!

tons of pressure!

tons of emotion!

wil them help me kp fit?

oh gosh..

they drive me crazy..

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心情不自觉的低落。。

就快回家了。。

为什么还是没有回家的快乐？

因为功课？

还是什么？

荷尔蒙作祟？

忘了该快乐的原因。。

却还要自己快乐。。

我该为了谁快乐？

该为了自己吧。。

地球一直自转。。

我却不能只为了自己。。

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sat 14 jan 2011

jen jen scold le.. lol.. so cum update my blog.. tis few days kinda lazy to upate.. hehe.. bo xim.. new sem of study make me feel tt oh gosh... so hard.. T.T cnt lengang lengang le.. kesian.. haiz.. nd to study hard le.. new sem, went 2 place edi.. othough near near la.. went kukup, near jb thr, went muar, bout 1hr+ car ride.. lol.. kukup jz for relax n seafood, n muar ntg much to play act.. go for the pasar malam thr oli.. nt rely nice.. hemmm.. nt much thg to eat n coz me nw hungry... hemm.. bout eat, my weight is gaining!!! OMG!!! i m 66kg nw!!!! hw cn it wil b lik tis? go bck kch eat too much liao lo.. haiz.. don wan k tt thg 1st.. nw my heart stil 8 playing.. hoho.. let me c.. 1st sem i went pulau pangkor, kl, n melaka, 2nd sem til nw i went kukup n muar.. wana go jb take a look when hav time oso.. hoho.. nw list down whr i haven go.. hoho.. haven go penang, langkawi, redang, tioman, camelon, sabah, ipoh, danga bay.. hemmmm hemmmm hemmm.. so many ah... nd to fast fast collect budget.. hoho.. tis yr four months... den slow slow lai.. wana go redang n sabah 1st.. XD woho!!! memang enjoy.. hopefully i wun forget my study.. lol.. btw.. i stil hav 4 assignment for tis week to hand in ah.... haiz.. bt nvm.. jz easy easy de.. hehe.. XD plus oil!!! hopefully lecturer wun giv test during i go bck to kch, i skip for the whole week ah.. all sub i skip edi.. bo bian.. kch mol important.. tis few weeks my heart is nt 'stable'.. dono wat happen.. haiz.. hopefully i cn fast fast get through..

害怕被遗忘。。

被人照顾是幸福的，

因为你还值得。。

照顾别人是幸福的，

因为你还有价值。。

活着，

总是担心被遗忘。。

扮演弱者只因希望有人疼。。

扮演强者只因害怕不被需要。。

努力的想讨好身边的人。。

害怕被遗忘了。。

害怕没有存在的价值了。。

想保护的人再不需要自己的呵护。。

就像价值慢慢在减少。。

就像。。

下一秒将被遗忘。。。。。。

我的恐惧。。

你懂吗？？？

jen's birthday~

1st of jan, jen's mummy suffer day, lol.

present tt i prepare.. vry 脆弱, kp on falling.. haiz..

den, i late to go pick them,

i dono y i insist to pick jen, moo moo n angkao..

lol.. den after tt angkao don wan sit my car le..

coz he say he nt yet marry, haha..

went delizze, quite nice,

i thk i wan to try the cake thr next time,

many ppl recommend.

blow the candles 8 delizze bt ate them 8 suk ling houz

nt allow to eat outside cake 8 delizze..

every1 tired, dono y?

even me, so energetic de oso.
coz i went out for the whole day edi,

morning til evening went out wif family

nite time celebrate wif jen

plus, i thk i hav fever.

hemmm..

n i found tt i nt suit to bcum a organiser,

i say real de, coz..

din rely provide full information

hehe..

btw, i oso nt a gd leader i thk

due to previous activities*i mean sch's*

othough i active, bt i nt suit to giv direction to others

i oli cn b active member.

lol..

lastly.. jen, happy birthday.. ^^