心。。。

halo guys.. hehe.. i tell u guys oo.. i found tt i growing fatter n fatter.. 2day i go weight myself n.. OMG!!! 65kg!!! haizzzz.. hehe.. nd kp fit edi.. 2day hav a national phy quiz... lol.. cn say o left blank.. hehe.. anywhr jz to get d cert.. so reality.. lol...
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心痛痛痛进心里
曾经的热情已不再
取而代之的只有无情与冷漠
曾经被燃起的希望
被冷血的破灭了
救生圈被无情的刺破
心
挣扎
沉入海底
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心
搁浅
希望被海水带回海里
让满满的关怀再次包围
浪花一次又一次的激起
一次又一次地靠近
让心
一次又一次的燃起希望
然而
每一次都没被带走
一次又一次希望被破灭
泪一滴一滴掉入海里
默默默默的祈求海水
带它回去
海水似没看见般
一次又一次无情的忽视
很久很久
泪枯了
心死了。。。。。。

简单的。。

我也只是想要简单的友情。。
没有背叛
没有利用
没有抛弃
只有
简简单单的友情
简简单单的快乐
简简单单的旅程
简简单单的欢笑

偷了人家的句子，嘻嘻。。想和大家分享。。

人人为我
我为人人
我不为人人
人人也不为我
自私是因为自私而引起的。。
这是偷来的句子，希望不介意。。

自以为是。。

guess wat.. 2day gt ppl cum my houz sell ice cream.... u guys noe la ho?? tt one pader pop pader pop.. dono spell lik tis o nt?? den i bring my younger sis go to buy ice cream.. den.. d halker try to tok to me lo.. he say........... ur kid?? OMG!!! my kid??? i stil so young... nt a mum.. tts my younger sis leh... haizzz... lol.. jz nw chat wif sang she said tt she wan to slp earlier to kp herself young n fresh.. hemmmm.. no wonder i look so old la... coz laz nite i slpt 8 2.30 i thk... hehe... haizzz... jie kou.. hoho.. yest go badminton wif jen sang n one fren tt long time no c.. is doreen oo..... lol... miss her.... den go tui laz nite.. hemmm.. 2day i eat spegati for my whole day.. lunch n dinner.. nt whole day la ho? 8 least nt breakfast.. so nice... hehe... den afternoon go tui.. during half way to tui tui center cal me n said tt 2day tui cancel.. reason nt sure.. hehe.. shud said i forget wats d reason edi.. hehe.. den back home lo... 2day din study for d whole day.. except morning.. i watched d laz vampire 2day oo.. hehe..
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人生中有太多的自以为是
自以为是的认为
自以为是的猜测
自以为是的发表
这让太多的误会产生
所以
我常常提醒自己
别太自以为是了
你不知道的时刻多着呢
哈哈。。
有个故事，不知道大家听过吗？？
有一位医生值夜班，当晚凌晨两点有个人因车祸受伤，那位医生自觉地认为，这么年轻，有这么晚发生车祸，肯定是飙车一族。。所以处理伤口时特别粗鲁，认为他活该，要让他受多点罪。。那年轻人感到非常痛，但他始终咬紧牙关，不出一声。。其实背后的故事是这样的。。那位少年，因家境的关系，一天打三份工，晚上到夜店打工，因此才这么晚回家，而车祸是因为他为了要就一只小狗才发生的。。那位医生，当了医生，却也把自己变法官了。。他自认为是的要给他人一点惩罚，但他的自以为是却让无辜的他人受了更多的委屈和痛苦。。

懒惰。。。

懒惰的我。。好久没写博客了。。哈哈。。有些事，不知该讲还是不该。。算了吧。。别多事，多事往往出事。。哈哈。。心情总像坐着过山车，忽高忽低的。。好讨厌。。以前，熬夜滋味了我最爱的电影和小说，现在熬夜只为了温书。。哈哈。。变好多哦。。没有再像以往般的疯狂，没有玩乐，只有乏味的生活，重复的过着每一天。。我也好想一个人去旅行。。背包旅行。。去埃及，去法国，去蒙古，去非洲，去德国，去澳洲还有好多好多，对了，还有北极和南极。。去登山，去潜水，骑脚车去旅行。。哈哈。。人没去旅行，在这里让思想去旅行。。也还不错。。
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冷气房里
冰冻了我的手脚
也冰冻了我的心
无声的夜
却没让我的心安静
思想
飞翔着
希望有个着落的地方
梦
始终闯不进我的睡眠
只好
又拿起冰冷的书
让它们陪伴我
过冰冷的夜晚。。。
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hemmmm.... 我写华语时都很悲吗？没办法。。心情只有用华语才能描写出来。。英文不行。。英文差。。嘻嘻。。

sick...

haizzz.. rely sick edi.. my younger sis start 1st.. flu.. i get flu 2day.. :(.. when i tui.. n yet i hav headache.. den after bck home i jz eat den go slp liao... til bout8pm i thk.. i din take lunch 2day.. hoho.. kp fit.. den vry hungry after tui.. mayb tt cause me to hav headache.. haizzz.. so 2nite slp early.. othough edi 11+.. hehe.. tml morning might nd to drive my bro to padungan.. long time din c jen so wana ask her go for breakfast o watever.. hehe.. bt dono whether i gt drive my bro ma?? so stil nd comfirm tml.. hehe.. tts all.. i seem long time din update my blog.. y?? lazy? mayb.. hohoho..

tues.. tml holiday...

hohoho.. tml is holiday.. act is hari sukan bt i din join any so x nd to sch.. oli thurs nd go for d che quiz.. hemmm.. fri gt phy extra claz de act bt cancel edi... tml chinese club wil go hari sukan to sell sumthg to hav mol fund for d club.. feel lik go support them bt.. i don thk my mum allow.. so.. nvm ba.. plus oil oo.. new batch de ppl.. we din did well for our yr so i hope u guys wil do well for tt.. hehe.. muet results cum out lo.. yesterday.. n dissapointed wif d result.. band 2.. cn't imagine.. hemmm.. den i start to blame tis n tt.. start to blame d teacher y don let us sit laz yr bcoz old syllibas mol easy.. den start to blame d examiner tt giv us speaking test.. wat else i blame??? hemmm.. bt after tt i thk.. y i blame o tis n tt?? i get band2 bcoz my eng poor bt nt tis n tt.. others cn get band 5 n even band6.. bt y nt me?? tt jz bcoz my eng vry poor bt nt others.. don kp on blaming again.. i shud responsible on my own result bt nt others who nd to b responsible on it.. i wan to study harder n harder.. i don wan myself to regret.. i noe i cn do it bt i jz lazy.. den after tt i wil blame tis n tt again when i cn't score.. wat attitude is tt?? haizz.. hemmm.. thx for everyone who support me n owes thr to plus oil for me.. thx oo.. thx sang sang.. oh ya.. one mol thg.. y ppl owes lik tt.. say tt don lik tis n tt bt he o she themself doin d thg tt they themself don lik while aspect(dono spell lik tis o nt?)others nt to do so.. n tt kind of person include me.. i owes remind myself when comment on others, i tell myself tt i oso din do such well y i aspect so much frm others.. me myself oso do wrong n i don hav d rite to ask others to do it correct.. haizz.. wat a wrong attitude.. lol.. nd to improve.. tis is d 3rd week my sis 8 JB.. quite miss her lo.. cn't use to it when she is bt bside us.. when having dinner wil feel.. haizz.. less one ppl.. nd to wait til nov i thk to hav dinner together.. suddently feel lik so miss my sally mummy susan aunty chui lin n o my ns frens.. r u oso missing me 8 d same time?? hehe..

saturday..

hemmm.. i seem to hav a long time din touch pc edi.. y?? bcoz mum nt allow?? i don thk so.. coz if mum nt allow i oso wil touch.. lol.. continue laz week.. my mood nvr try to bcum better.. everyday moody everyday feel lik don hav energy.. y?? dono again.. too many dono in my life edi.. when i wil giv d ans?? dono again.. agree wif sang sang.. i don wan to grow up.. bt i hav to.. thr r too many unknown in my life in my future n nw i dono hw to step to d front.. feel lik don dare to ahead again.. bt.. i hav to.. feel so 茫然.. 我发觉我迷路很久了。。是我不想出去面对我不知道的世界吗？？害怕了吗？？是的。。我承认。。我害怕了。。害怕我走不出。。害怕我一而再，再而三的令我身边的人失望。。我明白。。生活是为了自己。。但。。他们就是我的一部分。。我割舍不了。。也忽略不了。。感觉。。我活着是为了他们。。我需要勇气。。需要决心。。需要。。更多。。我知道谁也帮不了我。。谁也给不了我。。能帮我的人是我自己。。我好想只到这边就好。。到这边就好。。。泪留不下。。放不下。。
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没有星星的夜晚
只有月亮在唱独角戏
我问
你孤单吗？
你说
不
看不到
不代表他们不在身边
我不也在你身边吗？
你问
那我呢？
我说
我也知道他们在身边
我却还是孤单着
你说
是我太贪心了
要学会满足
我问
要如何才学会呢？
你说
你不会教我
我必须自己学
我说
好，我学
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舞台上
我在唱独角戏
把自己封闭的是我
却在责怪他人的不靠近
别人放弃了
后悔着挽回不了的感情
告诉自己千万别让自己后悔
却还是一直让自己后悔
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太阳高高在上
没有其他的陪伴
我问
你孤单吗？
你说
是的
你孤单
我问
你不是还有其他行星的陪伴吗？
你说
他们都不靠近你
我说
是你自己太炫耀你的光芒了
才让别人进不了你的世界
你老羞成怒的问
我不也是很孤单吗？
我说
是啊
我忘了
我又有什么资格说人呢？
只是我太封闭自己
而你是太炫耀自己
但结果都是一样的
孤单。。
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唱独角戏的我
发现
我抢了别人的舞台
那
我的舞台呢？
在那里？

wednesday leh..

hemmm.. guess wat.. 2day i hav 3 quiz.. 2nd n 3rd period hav pa quiz,4th n 5th period hav mx1 quiz,n after sch hav a che quiz.. lol.. anywhr i din study hard.. hemm.. tml ah liang wil go to australia lo.. 2day gt a fair well dinner bt den i cn't go.. hehe.. hemm.. wat i wan to say liao ho?? i forget edi leh.. lol.. fei ah.. hao xin ni take k a bit la.. me c liao wil xim tia leh.. haizzz.. oh ya.. arang road gt a student kena A(H1N1).. my bro de bsb partner.. her sis kena den his turn nw.. bt omoz recover edi.. lol.. every1 take k oo.. hemm.. i wana recomment sum song to u guys hr.. named 我知道我变漂亮了。。还有。。singderella.. i lik tt.. hehe.. guys.. i suddently found tt i m nt a kid anymol.. i cn't b 任性 lik kids anymol.. i nd to b responsible for wat i did wat i say wat i thk edi.. cn't jz 耍赖 lik kids anymol.. i jz realise tt time rely flies.. mayb bcoz ah liang wana go australia edi.. lol.. so suddently feel tt.. wah.. five yrs clazmate edi leh.. 将来，我们要走自己的路了。。没有朋友的陪伴。。只有陌生与孤独。。虽然。。心里会一直有着朋友们。。但。。还是分开了。。原来。。我们都长大了。。好舍不得。。

lazy..

hemmm.. tis days seem to b lazy to write blog.. when i feel wan to write blog i don hav pc to use, when i cn use d pc den i feel lik lazy to write.. so ppl.. don mind la ho?? hemmm.. act gt thg to say la.. wana say for many days edi.. bt owes forget.. hemmm.. hw to start? i found tt i owes want others to follow my ways.. o mind is mol accurate coz sumtime i oso cn't do tt bt still want others to do so.. i m scolding o blaming others tt cn't satisfy my own mind whr as i oso cn't do tt.. my eng nt so gd.. dono u guys cn understand wat i m toking bout ma?? hehe.. coz my pc stil cn't use bc.. hemmm.. jz nw watch sum short drama.. quite romantic.. a lady wif aids bt d guy stil wan b wif her wifout regret.. so romantic.. even tt gal owes reject bt tt guy oso wun giv up.. he blieve in miracle.. do u blieve?? ppl owes say tt oli appear in drama o wat ever bt i thk tt if we believe den it wil bcum true.. ofcoz we muz put effort on it 1st.. lol.. same opinion wif sang.. hemm.. tok bout 2day.. i wake up by my mum early in d morning jz to send my bro to tt wat wat wat meeting.. tao yan de bo... haizz.. bt hav to drive him oso.. den i jz go library.. read novel half do revision half.. lol.. hehe.. den i shud pick my bro 8 12 de den take him go study wif me.. who noe he went for movie den i go pick him 8 5sumthg.. den i go eat abc wif jen n fei.. quite nice.. hehe.. lol.. say ntg to write stil write so many thg.. hehe.. oh ya.. i to watch performance-"wu deng" on sat.. quite nice bt sum boring.. hemm.. dono y i cn't feel high on tt day.. n owes feel moody lo.. oh ya.. forget to say tt~tt fucking car!!! knock my car til my side mirror broken.. den every1 thk tt is my fault.. every1 thk tt is i drive my car too over.. damn fucking car!!! cn't c wat car coz drove to fast n tt time is raining gok.. y is my fault??? ok.. fine.. i din say tt i totally don hav responsible on tt.. bcoz i too slow bcoz i too blur so tts my fault oso.. rite??? i admit tt.. ok.. haizz.. bb.. cya next time..

my pc bck lo.. hoho..

halo guys.. oli few days din on9 nia bt feel lik ages din on9 edi.. haizzz.. hemmm.. few lik many thg to write lo.. bt den.. dono wat to write nw.. lol.. hemm.. guys.. cn help me?? coz my pc go reformat den o thgs gone.. i mean d msn la.. n cn't use mandarin nw.. ppl.. cn teach me hw to install?? :(