思念~

bali~~

2012-02-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

b4 come bck hr.. jen said me sure forget jor wat we did, whr we went jor.. so sure don hav any thg to write in blog.. yaya... hehe.. i admit.. i sure forget jor whr we went.. bt i sure rmb gt u ppl acc me so crazy spend so much money 8 bali.. the most important is gt u ppl acc me.. hav fun 2gether.. plus the food thr.. hohohoho.. rely rely damn nice especially the pork ribs.. oh gosh.. i wan to eat again.. hungry nw.. XD dirty duck dirty duck.. i wil go for u again.. XD oh no~ fat die me~~ fat jor 3kg neh.. nd to kp fit when bck to pr le.. hoho..

recently.. i found tt i kp 发呆.. wat happen to me? haizz..

2012-02-07T02:42:00.002+08:00

抛开坏心情。。bali。。我来了。。。亲爱的宝吟，每次看你的部落格心情都会变好。。让我们一起期待我们的bali之旅吧。。对了，bali的华语怎么写？ XD

2012-02-07T02:17:00.002+08:00

最近，总是不停的留意面子书上的近况。。

不想，却又忍不住。。

看了，却又在心的伤口撒盐。。

痛了。。。真的痛了。。痛得想哭了。。

2012-01-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

有谁...看见了笑容后面的苦涩？ :)

2012-01-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

oh ya.. one mol thg.. no matter wat happen and make me moody o unhappy o wat ever.. my heart stil on it.. bali!!!!!!! i m coming!!!! i wan to relax!!! bt b4 tt... passport.. XD jen jen.. passport ya.. rmb ooo.. o nt our bali wil pao tang le.. XD so semangat wana go bck meet u ppl.. you ppl who owes giv me energy to go on.. when i feel i wana collapse den i thk of u ppl, my energy come bck jor.. ^^ jen jen, yiin, yan, fei, sang sang.. angkao, bert, hemmm.. moo moo x use de.. don peduli dia.. XD damn miss u ppl.. :)

久违了，部落格

2012-01-18T18:18:00.002+08:00

忘了何时是最后更新部落格了，好久了吧。。自从那天去了堂姐的婚礼到现在吧。嘻嘻，都快过年了。考完试了，朋友回了，剩下我独自一人还在宿舍，等待回家的那天。过年了，愿望是希望这次可以拿三点五以上，我真的有努力了。。很努力的在学书了，只是那天有一科忽然失水准，也不懂为什么，可以把责任怪在你身上吗？害我失水准。忽然，我发现自己好像很会哭。那天，心不知为什么一直在忐忑不安，不安到自己很想大喊出来，很想大哭出来。很当心很当心，等着电话，没消息就是好消息。。最后才安心睡了。压抑自己的情绪，在考完law后就哭了出来。朋友被我吓到了吧。。少哭的我竟然在你们面前哭了。。XD 第二天赶紧打电话回家，打电话给姐姐。姐问我什么事，我说没事，她说一定是有事的，不过我还是没说，姐，你好聪明哦。。

我。。变贪心了。慢慢的变得越来越贪心。。却把自己的贪心一点一点的收藏好。。只为了不成为你的负担。。我会放手的，让我现在任性一次好吗？

p/s: jen, i noe u wan ask.. lol.. when we meet den we tok.. ^^ happy belated birthday and happy chinese new year!!!! hugssss and muackzzzz...

2011-12-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

after read my fren's blog, feel so 开朗.. ^^ ppl life style seem so 多姿多彩。反观自己的大学生活好像很无聊呢。。宝吟，真的谢谢你的恶心。。最近生活好像很灰暗，你的一句话让我灰暗的世界，有了那一点的光亮。。让我觉得，我至少还有你们。。爱你们～ XD

p/s: py.. tis time shud b rite le ba.. XD

crazy thg i did for tis sem!!!

2011-12-03T23:23:00.004+08:00

hemmm.. drive to jb myself, without gps, n just bring my roommate after go minyak beku 摸鱼.. tt time is 6pm and bck to home by 12am.. geng? i oso vry pei fu myself for my braveness.. after tt, the day b4 my surveying test, i went to kluang wif 3 crazy ppl, andy, pp n my roommate.. jz go thr turn round n round.. oh ya.. gt a cafe open recently 8 my area n it said tt cn compare wif melaka nadege 千层蛋糕.. bt after i go tried, i so so so so disappointed... n frm tt day i vry desperate to go melaka nadege.. n 2day, i did it. XD go wif tt 3 crazy person again n plus soon.. spend nt much.. n satisfy.. enjoy my life to max!!! next, wil nd to b serious on study le.. play hard n oso study hard!!!

这才是真正好吃的千层蛋糕！！

five insane ppl!!! XD

2011-11-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

做人一定要经得起谎言，

受得起敷衍，忍得住欺骗，

忘得了承诺，放得下一切，

最后用笑来伪装掉下来的眼泪，

越是忍住眼泪，越是会变成幸福的良药。。

2011-11-27T07:19:00.002+08:00

离开家，总是要面对不同的人。没有家的庇护，我还剩下什么？
总有很多事发生，也越让我觉得人心恐怖，我还没做好准备吗？
是我太单纯？还是其实我也和其他人一样，只是自己不自知而已。
挂着笑容过着我的每一天，以为自己很快乐，却发现，原来心是空的。
原来自己也被笑容欺骗了。
没有目标，漫无目的的过着每一天。
却也盼望着有个人在身边陪伴我走每一步。
同时却也希望心是静止的，不为任何人波动。。
我真的很迷茫。。。

sem break at kl

2011-11-27T07:09:00.003+08:00

sry jen.. promise you wil update my blog after i bck to johor bt til nw jz update. 10 days at kl and over budget. bt rely hav a nice moment wif jen. thx for everythg.. thx for bring me go eat hao liao, bring me go movies, bring me go shopping and so on.. forget jor whr hav we been tt 10days jz rmb tt i hav a nice memories wif u.. ^^ i noe u miss me.. we goin to meet le.. don wory.. XD

21st birthday...

2011-11-15T01:15:00.003+08:00

grow up edi? ya.. i m adult edi.. free? ya.. free edi.. bt don mean tt i cn do watever i lik, jz tt frm nw own, i would nd to b responsible wif watever i do..

gt my birthday presents.. ^^ thx..

choc lava 8 secret.. nice.. damn love it.. thx for my beloved sis.. ^^

present frm my dear.. thx.. ^^

present frm andy, pp n soon.. thx..my 1st beer in my 21st..

present frm beloved jen.. thx.. i noe is blur.. my phone lauzy.. hehe.. bo bian..

那些年，我们一起追的女孩。。

2011-11-12T00:14:00.005+08:00

现在还在吉隆坡，本来以为会回去才写部落格，可是现在却很想写。。

今天，是我第二次看那些年，‘u r the apple of my eyes’，翻译成华语却是你是我的唯一，看了这部戏两次了，两次都被感动了。不知道为什么，就是被感动了。不同阶乘看这部戏，我相信会有不一样的感觉。。我过几天就二十一岁了，没有真正的谈过恋爱，却有真心的去暗恋过人，保持着暧昧关系，却没有勇气去踏出下一步。
有句活从朋友那里抄来
‘现实的时光没有像电影一样，一个镜头就是两年后。所以你不会知道这两年内你想她几轮，你哭了几回，你握紧你的手机几次，一个镜头感受不到，那就经历吧。经历你在阳台的眼泪，经历你在成双人群里的寂寞，经历你听到的传闻，经历，经历她和他的幸福，经历，那些年你们的回忆。’
觉得这应该是我看这部戏之所以如此感触的地方吧。。
看了之后，就一直在想，如果当初，他鼓起勇气去听那个答案，是否结局就不一样？如果当初，他鼓起勇气牵起她的手，是否结局就不一样？
可是，想想后，觉得，谁能知道结局是什么呢？或许会是好在一起，可是最后却分开呢？如此是不是失去了一个好朋友？失去一个值得回忆的暧昧关系？
未来真的很迷茫。。。我不晓得我会为你掉泪吗？不晓得我会为你心痛吗？我不晓得我一年会想你几回？不晓得两年会想你几回？但是。。以后，我会一直一直想起你。。就像电影里的他心里的她。。

那些年，你又曾为了他做过什么？

awesome uni life~

2011-11-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

this sem i really have a awesome uni life. yest 12am, should be 2day edi. we go sing k again, and this time we went bcoz of celebrating my birthday. really a big surprise! i totally dont know about this, and when they send in the cake i kp asking, hemm.. whose birthday 2day? after that just know that is a pre-birthday for me. waiting for frens to upload pic.. bt dono tt person hardworking or nt? hopefully he will post after read my blog. lol.. after that, we go for mcd breakfast at 4am. n during the breakfast, gt a fren kp 耍宝，it was so so so funny.poh poh~ great to hav fren lik u.. ^^ and we laugh lik mad in the mcd for none stop. after bck home den we continue with cards play-heart attack. who lost den wil hav punishment. my fren act as pink panther and tt was so funny. hahaha. rely a crazy life. bt nw lack of slp and start to feel sick. tml early in the morning i wil nd to take bus and start my kl journey. jen jen.. meet u soon~

p/s: thx every1 who celebrate birthday for me. rely appreciate that. nice to have you ppl in my uni life. in this boring and annoying uni, i stil hav u ppl who cn acc me.. muackzzzz...^^

烦心~

2011-11-01T03:20:00.003+08:00

总有一些不如意的事情。
睁一只眼闭一只眼已成了惯性。
心机，你有我也有，分分钟比你们厉害。
只是我懒惰。懒得耍心机。
我一点也不单纯，我懂得也很多。
只是我喜欢简单，把自己也变得简单。
我过我要的简单日子，你们就继续你们的复杂日子。
最后的赢家始终是我，只因为我比你们放得开。

人与人之间连最基本的信任都没有，算是朋友吗？
把最简单的信任交出去后，绝不后悔。
即使得到的是背叛，也是因为自己看错人不是吗？
没有必要把所有的过错都推到别人身上。

就是喜欢简单直接，躲躲藏藏的还是我自己吗？

movie again~

2011-10-30T01:57:00.002+08:00

In Time!!! nice movie.. love the main character,a handsome guy.. one word,帅!!! XD hemmm.. after coming here for about one and a half months, i watch 3 movies and go for 3 times k-box.. quite many huh? hehe.. 2day my sis birthday, secret recipe, earrings, and also a cactus for her. oh ya, and also kfc n red eggs. ^^ bought 6 cactus yesterday and give one to her. love cactus. for no reason. cactus tough, even not really take care of them, they still survive. treat them soft, if hurt them you will also get hurt.

i m broke..

2011-10-22T21:36:00.002+08:00

wednesday, had my 1st test at my 3rd sem. law test. after that, celebrate houzmate's birthday at ktv again. lol. from 10pm till 3pm with all houzmate and oso andy's geng. secret recipe cake and rm27 for sing k. after k go out wif fren again. bt nt goin far. jz a simple ride. n hav a hug frm him. n rely thx for tt. a hug equal to a petrol station for me. i nd it sumtime. u noe who r u rite? and broke oso le. T.T i nd to save money for bali trip leh. goin to muar next sun. shud wun spend too much. bought a book 2day, 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. a nice book n cost for rm22.. haiz. rely broke jor lo.

read py blog, and.. i miss home again. missing the time when i hold mummy n daddy hand during outing.

crazy night on sunday~

2011-10-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

have a really crazy night on sunday~ i just realize that i can have my crazy life at parit raja. is like wohoo!!!! its awesome! decided to have a movie at 9.40pm, real steel, a nice movie. at first decided go with pei cheng only, but at last still asked andy and poh poh go together, maybe i think to have a driver. hahaha. just kidding. Andy, happy now? your name appear in my blog. XD and guess what, after movie is about 12am already and we decided go sing k at the midnight. cool~ i love it. sing from midnight till 3am, by the way, forget to say that we have a morning 8.30am class on monday. poh poh voice just nice~ hehe.. after sing k we went to minyak beku( a beach near batu pahat ) to have a view of sunrise. it was so crazy, omg! i have a long talk with poh poh for the whole night till about 6 something if i not mistaken. but sunrise at the different direction. lol.. and after that, we all still went to the class and the class is till 5pm. of course we have break in the middle. haha.. but after that i have a serious panda eyes. XD and i think not all my housemate know that i not going home at that night. hahaha.. want to say that nice to have you all in my university life, without you people my uni life will be damn damn damn meaningless and bored!!! muackzzz..

p/s: names appear in my blog are my uni friends. ^^ special explaination to jen jen chew XD

movie~ ^^

2011-10-15T11:25:00.003+08:00

never know that i will have such friends at here also, so random like us jen. ^^ go for movie last night at bout 9pm and watch 10.40pm movie if not mistaken. just a random and go for it. love this kind of life and make me miss kuching more. after movie go lim teh till about 2am. *wink* jenjen~ i miss watching movie with you, although you very noisy while watching movie.. hahaha.. by the way, "love you you" is quite nice~ romantic~ you gonna like it if you go watch. hehe.. still remember last time we go for movie at kl? got a romantic english movie, i miss that. XD

p/s: missing you~

2011-10-14T00:13:00.001+08:00

来了念书之后，心情总是莫名其妙的低落。。

是想家吗？

appreciate ~~

2011-10-12T19:34:00.002+08:00

appreciate what you have~ families and friends.

Damn happy and keep smiling because you say love me~ so sweet~ i will try my best to keep fit! don't return me please~ love you~ you will have a leng lui in your group.. XD

2011-10-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

有时候。。

我发现我真的很不了解自己。。

咖啡~

2011-10-09T11:06:00.002+08:00

少了糖的咖啡

少了甜甜味道

却多了浓浓的咖啡味

少了你的日子

少了许多微笑

却多了浓浓的寂寞感

苦涩的滋味

留在舌齿间。。

2011-10-06T21:13:00.004+08:00

戒指掉了，不是特别贵，心却在痛。

看到了，心在痛。

我在为她心痛，我做不了什么。

你受伤了吧？痛吗？

你每次都那么勇敢，那么独立，那么坚强，坚强的让人心痛。

每次你都给我依靠，我却什么也给不了你。

只能为你生气，为你心痛，为你掉泪。。。

记得，你还有我。我爱你。。。

妈妈不在身边保护我们，我们要学会保护自己。。

Damn ice cream!

2011-10-05T22:26:00.002+08:00

feel guilty because i ate a cup of ice cream yesterday night, should say today about 12.30am before sleep and just now force myself to have 50 times sit up . getting fatter and i need to control myself. every time just can't control myself when i see ice- cream. cant be like this. haiz. and my cough getting serious just because of the ice- cream. :(

hopefully i will have a nice day~ ^^

2011-10-05T12:02:00.002+08:00

yesterday night i was at my friend's house without bringing my hand phone. after that jen ask me to call her and i use someone phone to call her. i just realise that i can remember her phone number, jen, you should feel happy with that because i didn't really remember numberssss.. lol.. say the truth, i only can remember yours, my daddy and my mummy no., and also moo moo's. others i really cant remember, can say that i never try to remember others no. lol.. so jen, don angry about i forget what we chat in skype, coz i remember ur hp no. btw, you r the one who owes appear in my blog.. ^^

now i try to use proper english in my blog because i having a course, technical writing which require us to write essay. Damn!!! can i say i hate english? XD by the way, do correct me if i have grammar mistake. :)

a boring weekend~~

2011-10-01T23:46:00.004+08:00

alone in room, searching info for ass, listen to songs, a damn boring weekend. yesterday slept at about 6.30am just because of watching anime. Damn!! i back to unhealthy life again. Can't be like that. i need to love myself more. so after assignment then need to sleep. hemmm.. back to the title, boring weekend. morning sleep till 12.15pm, then brunch, after that sleep again. really boring right? after that wake up by friend asking go for basketball. forget how to play, and just simply shoot. aiksss... py ah.. i cant even hit the ring ah.. my friend ask me, u ever play de ma? so ashamed. >< ok.. i admit that i really noob in bsb, only go for a real play for once and lost the game. but still like bsb so much. hehe. oh.. run away from topic again. den after that just back home. dinner just have some bread and 2 eggs. will i get breast cancer? i ate 2 eggs today leh. XD and now updating blog with nonsense, don't know you people will have patient to read till here or not?

p/s: really missing you.. ♥

2011-10-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

thinking of you~ ^^

2011-09-29T22:18:00.001+08:00

sometime when i say " i m okay", i want someone to look in my eyes, hug me tight and say " i know you are not.." ^^

坚强。。。

2011-09-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

放纵自己之后，告诉自己是该坚强了。

面具脱下太久，会忘了如何戴回。

坚强久了，累了，停下来了。

停泊久了却会沉沦，所以是时候启程了。

忘了不该有的软弱，再次戴上面具，出发吧。

坚强才是该有的。。

妈妈也希望我是坚强的吧。。^^

只是。。胃痛啊，放过我吧，我已经很疼自己了。。别来烦我可以吗？我求你了。。T.T

p/s:我爱的你，谢谢你说爱我。。

2011-09-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

damn fxxking gastric!!! u r so annoying! stay away frm me!!!!

想说。。。

2011-09-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

我爱你，在我还来得及说出口时。。你知道你是谁，没有原因，就是爱你。。真的很爱。。

明白的话请回我一句爱我。。谢谢。。

2011-09-24T11:26:00.001+08:00

坚强久了，也是会累的。。。

生病时，总是想很多。。

2011-09-23T21:42:00.005+08:00

生病了，

总在这个时候想家。。

告诉自己

哭过就好了，

心却还是在痛，

舔舐着伤口，

把伤口藏起来，

不是坚强，

只是怕被人在伤口上撒盐。。

在陌生的地方，

成了别人的依靠，

却总找不到依靠，

心总是浮浮沉沉，

却总抓不住浮木。

讨厌不必要的误会

因为误会总使友情脆弱

到底是别人想象力丰富？

还是我总让人误会？

是友情本身的问题？

还是误会的问题？

人生总有许许多多的问题

却总有没有答案的问题

2011-09-18T02:14:00.003+08:00

"if u hate me, i don't really care. i don't live to please u.""如果你讨厌我，我一点也不介意。我活着不是为了取悦你" vry nice quote. i'm who i'm. nt sum1 else. the original me. so don judge me wif wat i m. 8 least i lik myself, i act as myself. no matter ugly, clumsy, o anythg else, i m jz myself. ^^

2011-09-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

不知什么时候开始

对生活的热忱减少了

忘了该有的梦想

不知什么时候开始

对周遭的生活不再那么关心

不知什么时候开始

已逐渐脱离了群体生活

开始慢慢的慢慢的

把自己关起来

活在自己的世界

爱上独自坐在门口看着下雨的情景

让思想放空

走了自己选择的路

却开始迷茫

对妈妈说

我不念了，回去做工

却还是呆在原地踏步

回来没几天，天天打电话

向妈妈撒娇

却忘了当初对自己说要独立

要报喜不报忧。。。

bck to johor :(

2011-09-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

far away from my hometown, but i have left my heart at there. trying to adapt my new life here, but keep having new problem. i thought i have independent enough, but i m not. i still want my mummy to cook for me, handle everything for me. feel so helpless at here. i m just a mummy girl. i want to be a mummy girl. :( moody chin~

2011-07-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

昨晚

很忽然的，害怕得感觉突袭了我。。

害怕他们会消失在我的世界里，

我很想很想天天就像这样过，

不要再回去那该死的地方，当初固执的要选择的地方，那远离了我最亲爱家人的地方。

我不想离开这里，害怕一离开就再也看不到。

以为二姨的离开并没有带给我任何影响，

可是却带给我深深的胆怯。

就那么一瞬间啊。。我真的在害怕了。。

我总在想象自己掌握着生死簿，删除在死亡簿上不该有的名字。。

p/s: 最近一直在懒惰，习惯了懒惰的日子就不想动了。。抱歉哦。。

dedicated to jen jen chew~ copied from poh yiin lim~ XD

2011-07-30T00:03:00.002+08:00

boring life start~

9.45am : "ah ying, wake up!!!"

10.00am: clean up~ lalalalala~ brush teeth, wash face n take bath~~ XD

10.30am : help my mum packing food (home small small business)

11.00am : start the car.. bum bum bum~~~

11.45am : reach working place (sum time nt so chun.. depends on situation of traffic.. )

11.50am : read newspaper~

12.50pm : catch snake~~~ (unless gt customer) XD

5.00pm : hav dinner~

5.30pm : catch snake~~~~ (unless gt customer)

7.50pm : switch off lights n aircond..

7.55pm : pang gang~~

8.00pm : kia kia~ anywhr, sumtime shopping, sumtime go grandma houz

8.55pm : reach my sis working place n wait~~~

9.00pm : sis pang gang~~

9.15pm : home sweet home~~ <3

9.18pm : watch tv programme~~

10-11pm: take bath, depends on tv programme nice ma? XD

11pm : on9~~~

12-2am : ong ong liao.. (depends on tiredness.. )

everyday repeating~~

2011-07-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

疑惑于自己的无情，

更讨厌自己的无情。。。

cry like tears from river n laugh lik insane

2011-05-29T01:52:00.005+08:00

mayb jz long time din cry, the day b4 laz nite i cried lik tears frm river, non stop. cnt control n jz cried for the whole nite, call my dear n cried to her, jz felt disappointed to myself. nvr ever did thg perfectly, owes bo liang bo juak, bt stil i don change. rejected jen n lied to her, sry dear jen, tt day i nt sick, i call u during crying n i lied to u tt i m sick. jz cnt explain wat happen so i lied to u, sry.. moody so i rejected u.. i noe u wil forgive me rite? XD cried til i fall aslp. 2nd day my eyes swollen lik goldfish's. 2nd day, speak nt even one word to daddy. den 2nite went out wif jen, py, yan, suk ling, bert n angkao.. lol.. long time din c them. whole journey 2nite i jz lik crazy n kp laughing. miss yan n py so so so much!!! n so bert n angkao. oh ya, met dam oso n hav dinner 2gether. hav a great nite! love it.

love hanging out wif u guys..

jen, i love ur smile! :D

2011-04-18T01:14:00.002+08:00

心参挟着一丝丝的痛在跳着

跳动着

在痛着

为什么会呢？

找不到原因

只能任由它痛。。。

矜持

2011-04-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

什么是矜持？？

我不懂

也不想懂

因为人说

我靠近异性是一种不矜持

是这样吗？

只是朋友而已

有必要吗？

没有主动那来的朋友？

我交朋友从来没有看性别

为什么异性就不能当朋友

如果你说兴趣不同我无话可说

如果你说没有共同的话题我无话可说

可是仅仅一个矜持就要我放弃友情？

原来你们的世界里

友情是那么的脆弱

脆弱的让人难以相信

抱歉

我的友情没有你们的脆弱

我痛恨那些为了无谓的外人观

而割断了友情

背后那些不堪入耳的话

我都懂

不矜持

不知廉耻

什么都有

我不懂的是原来广交朋友在你们眼里是有错的。。

交朋友不是看心吗？

怎么变成看性别了？

2011-04-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

是雨

豆大的雨滴冲不走心中凌乱的情绪

哀愁无声无息的来袭

脸上淡淡的笑容掩盖一切

戴了太久的面具

忘了原有的表情

藏了太久的泪水

忘了眼泪是咸的

忽然想一个人

一个人思想

一个人发呆

一个人看书

却又在仰望原有的热闹

有时笑得越开心

心却是越失落

忘了真真快乐是何时？

是夜

让黑暗吞没自己

想忘了

不该有的渴望。。。。

sick...

2011-04-02T15:16:00.002+08:00

diarrhea for few days, after tt menstrual pain, den flu n cough oso cum le.. hate myself to b so weak. mentally blank for weeks n weeks. don hav idea, don hav emotion, don hav worry, don hav pressure. wat m i doin? such a zombie.

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站在风中

吹着

没有情绪的风

人说

如果我可以和你一样多好

我说

你羡慕我我也在羡慕你

人永远都那么的贪心

贪心着

那不属于自己的

却都不珍惜

自己所有的

累了。。

2011-03-08T03:12:00.002+08:00

走远了，

累了。。

人累了，

心累了，

想留在原地不想动了。。

迷茫了，

没了活力，

是玩太多了吗？

一瞬间，

生活变得无趣了，

活着像个没生命的，

一直重复着，

没有什么事是值得开心的，

也没有什么事实会伤心的。。

我怎么了？？？

真的好累，好累。。。

我想停下来了。。。

烦~

2011-03-04T20:49:00.002+08:00

烦啊~ 最近一直在烦。。烦什么？

烦功课，烦考试。。

哇，真是奇迹，我也会烦这些。。

在向往着猪的生活。。悲哀。。

还烦，人际关系。。

别人的事也拿来烦。。

果然人太好是不好的。。

人啊，就是复杂的东西，思想复杂，什么都复杂。。

用心对待一个人换来的或许就是背叛。

但或许也是另一个真心对待。

付出太多的，也是受伤最多的。。

但总在不自不觉中付出。。

然后。。。受伤。。。

在我这里的“家”，我竟然看到了四川变脸的表演，或许更精彩吧。。

那时，心都寒了。。

或许以往都活在单纯的世界，从来没到过现实社会。

大学是踏进社会先修班果然是没错。。

我看到了人心的丑陋，庆幸的，我还是有看到人心的美丽。。

害怕着或许有一天，我的心也会变，变得丑陋了。。

我还可以回到我以往的世界吗？

我还可以保留以往的单纯吗？

我讨厌争吵，所以都在把东西看得简单些。

但，人总会得寸进尺。

退一步海阔天空不是吗？

好想，好想。。

一个人静下来。。

藏在自己的空间。。

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受伤了，

把伤口藏起来，

不许要别人的同情，

不许要别人的安慰，

更不许要别人在伤口上再度撒盐。。

受伤了，

不是别人的错，

错在自己，

因为没把自己保护好。。

痛了，

再忍一忍吧，

伤口始终会复原，

久了，

疤痕也会淡化，

淡化后也会遗忘，

又何必耿耿于怀？

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在想。。。

如果明年真的是世界末日。。

我。。。

现在要尽情的享受。。

至少我有生之年。。

快乐过。。

开心过。。

那就足够了。。。

2011-01-23T01:59:00.003+08:00

思想

一直在放空

慢慢的

让时间从指尖流逝

忘了

什么才是该关心的

忘了

什么是不该管的

一望无际的视野

心

也往哪飘了

累了

想歇歇

却忘了

还在海中央

只好往下沉

不后悔

因为

或许现在已是最好的结局。。。

2011-01-20T03:37:00.002+08:00

放下了，

曾经

他让我留过泪

因为他的不珍惜

曾经

以为放不下的他

已成为生命中过客

曾经

一直绕着我头脑转的他

如今已被遗忘

只有偶尔出现

就像现在

回顾自己的博客

才想起他曾经的出现。。

拿得起，我放的下。。

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曾经

我告诉自己

自己选的路自己负责

曾经

我告诉自己

我不会后悔自己的选择

曾经

我告诉自己

只要活在当下就足够了

曾经

我告诉自己

只要每天开心就足够了

忘了

曾经告诉自己的话

逃避着问题的存在

后悔

不是我一贯的作风

拿得起

放的下

不是潇洒

只是不想

让时间浪费在后悔

过得再苦

我也不后悔。。。

2011-01-20T01:53:00.002+08:00

回首，

发现。。

你一直在

你很忙

忘了要偶尔想我

我却一直对你念念不忘

你总是嫌我吵

虽然习惯了

但有时

心还是会点点受伤

忘了何时？

我对你的依赖变得那么深

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把自己关在音乐世界

忽视着身旁的所有

逃避着不想面对的

听着一首又一首的歌

品味着歌词里的每一个字

感叹着

他们唱着我的心

不对。。

忘了

我没有心

被带走了

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tons of assignment!

tons of pressure!

tons of emotion!

wil them help me kp fit?

oh gosh..

they drive me crazy..

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心情不自觉的低落。。

就快回家了。。

为什么还是没有回家的快乐？

因为功课？

还是什么？

荷尔蒙作祟？

忘了该快乐的原因。。

却还要自己快乐。。

我该为了谁快乐？

该为了自己吧。。

地球一直自转。。

我却不能只为了自己。。

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sat 14 jan 2011

2011-01-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

jen jen scold le.. lol.. so cum update my blog.. tis few days kinda lazy to upate.. hehe.. bo xim.. new sem of study make me feel tt oh gosh... so hard.. T.T cnt lengang lengang le.. kesian.. haiz.. nd to study hard le.. new sem, went 2 place edi.. othough near near la.. went kukup, near jb thr, went muar, bout 1hr+ car ride.. lol.. kukup jz for relax n seafood, n muar ntg much to play act.. go for the pasar malam thr oli.. nt rely nice.. hemmm.. nt much thg to eat n coz me nw hungry... hemm.. bout eat, my weight is gaining!!! OMG!!! i m 66kg nw!!!! hw cn it wil b lik tis? go bck kch eat too much liao lo.. haiz.. don wan k tt thg 1st.. nw my heart stil 8 playing.. hoho.. let me c.. 1st sem i went pulau pangkor, kl, n melaka, 2nd sem til nw i went kukup n muar.. wana go jb take a look when hav time oso.. hoho.. nw list down whr i haven go.. hoho.. haven go penang, langkawi, redang, tioman, camelon, sabah, ipoh, danga bay.. hemmmm hemmmm hemmm.. so many ah... nd to fast fast collect budget.. hoho.. tis yr four months... den slow slow lai.. wana go redang n sabah 1st.. XD woho!!! memang enjoy.. hopefully i wun forget my study.. lol.. btw.. i stil hav 4 assignment for tis week to hand in ah.... haiz.. bt nvm.. jz easy easy de.. hehe.. XD plus oil!!! hopefully lecturer wun giv test during i go bck to kch, i skip for the whole week ah.. all sub i skip edi.. bo bian.. kch mol important.. tis few weeks my heart is nt 'stable'.. dono wat happen.. haiz.. hopefully i cn fast fast get through..

害怕被遗忘。。

2011-01-11T01:16:00.001+08:00

被人照顾是幸福的，
因为你还值得。。
照顾别人是幸福的，
因为你还有价值。。
活着，
总是担心被遗忘。。
扮演弱者只因希望有人疼。。
扮演强者只因害怕不被需要。。
努力的想讨好身边的人。。
害怕被遗忘了。。
害怕没有存在的价值了。。
想保护的人再不需要自己的呵护。。
就像价值慢慢在减少。。
就像。。
下一秒将被遗忘。。。。。。
我的恐惧。。
你懂吗？？？

jen's birthday~

2011-01-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

1st of jan, jen's mummy suffer day, lol.

present tt i prepare.. vry 脆弱, kp on falling.. haiz..

den, i late to go pick them,

i dono y i insist to pick jen, moo moo n angkao..

lol.. den after tt angkao don wan sit my car le..

coz he say he nt yet marry, haha..

went delizze, quite nice,

i thk i wan to try the cake thr next time,

many ppl recommend.

blow the candles 8 delizze bt ate them 8 suk ling houz

nt allow to eat outside cake 8 delizze..

every1 tired, dono y?

even me, so energetic de oso.
coz i went out for the whole day edi,

morning til evening went out wif family

nite time celebrate wif jen

plus, i thk i hav fever.

hemmm..

n i found tt i nt suit to bcum a organiser,

i say real de, coz..

din rely provide full information

hehe..

btw, i oso nt a gd leader i thk

due to previous activities*i mean sch's*

othough i active, bt i nt suit to giv direction to others

i oli cn b active member.

lol..

lastly.. jen, happy birthday.. ^^

year 2011

2010-12-31T23:57:00.002+08:00

ya.. is 2011 edi, nt much different for me act..

jz nd to change 10 to 11 when i write date. lol..

update blog.. n found tt my blog is boring..

n.. owes lazy to update,

which cause me forget wat i wan to update..

end up..

no thg update.. :p

haha..

satisfy wif nwadays life..

nt too much change o act change lots jz i suit them vry fast?

laz yr hav many vry first time,

1st time leave my beloved family so long n so far away

1st time leave my beloved bed n pillow so long n so far away

1st time din eat mum's cooking for a long period

1st time eat malay's food for omoz everyday

1st time stay 8 west m'sia for a long period

1st time live wif ppl who are strangers n nw r ji mui

1st time hav assignment n owes laz min

1st time enjoy my life wifout tv for so long

1st time i hav fun n spend lots 8 west m'sia

1st time i use ktm,lrt n monorel

1st time i went to prom nite

1st time i went pulau pangkor

1st time i saw blue eye

1st time i went melaka

1st time i fly alone

1st time i climb up to the 3rd waterfall of gunung gading

1st time i saw real rafflesia!!!!

n for the vry 1st time.. i feel so guilty to mummy..

so many 1st time in my 2010

chat about donate organ wif my mum jz nw..

she seem lik nt rely agree wif me..

she ask me to donate blood enuf

no nd donate organ

din tok much bout tt..

ya i noe, touch wood.. y suddenly say tis kind of thg?

bt i rely thk tt live is so short,

who noe wat wil happen next min o even next sec?

so i enjoy every sec of my life nw.. ^^

i dono y i wan to donate organ，

伟大?? i don thk so..

i nvr thk tt i wil 伟大

i nvr thk to save ppl

jz tt, its good to let ppl hav the opportunities to live

if i cnt, den let others hav the chances.

coz the world is so beautiful

don waste it..

if i die suddenly.. yaya touch wood

i hope i cn,

cn donate my organs

n.. i wan 火葬.

幸福的我~

2010-12-22T23:36:00.008+08:00

今天有目一睹世界最大的花，不枉此行。。^^

今天去了gunung gading.. 好累好累。。。虽然很累可是还是很兴奋，终于有人陪我爬上第三个瀑布了。。辛苦的确是值得的，我看到了世界最大的莱佛士花。。好感动哦。。今天是冬至节晚上回家过节。。

今天忽然很感慨，

觉得，我真的真的好幸福。。

有着疼爱我的家人，

成为我避风港的家。。

有着陪我疯狂的朋友，

陪伴着我把空白的记忆填满五颜六色的美好回忆。。

有着美好的古晋，

留下家人与朋友的足迹。。

上了大学，

有着陪我苦陪我乐的室友。。

虽然知道要努力念书才能拿好成绩，

我却向往放松点，

活得精彩的人生。。

虽然成绩只是平平，

平时的玩乐却让我庆幸

我没让压力把我自己压垮。。

虽然别人都说那是我懒惰的借口。。

可是人生短短几十年，

难道就要让成绩填满自己的一生吗？

我不要那样的生活。。

我不后悔我选择的路。。

而是对自己的选择负责。。

我真的觉得我是很幸福的。。

有爸妈，有姐姐，弟弟，妹妹。。

有jen,yiin,fei,yan,sang sang,angkao,moo moo,bert,elvin,dam dam,等等等。。。

有pc,enna,muachi,shu fang,ooi,yee yan,yen bei虫虫,ah boon,susie,andy,poh poh,izzac n so on..

还有那些对我微笑过的人，

谢谢你们对我表达友善。。

我真的好幸福。。

好幸福。。

outing

2010-12-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

outing everyday after i bck frm johor.. i m broke nw... lol.. rely hav a great day.. morning go eat kolo me 8 xin lian cheng wif yan, evening went hock lee play bsb wif fei n yiin, den bought a book 8 smart n owe yiin RM14, oh gosh.. nw i m fu zi chan le.. after tt my daddy suddenly cum bck.. wondering y he so free.. cum bck twice wifin a week.. don say me bad coz don wan my daddy cum bck.. i jz wondering y he cn go hr n thr wifin a week, nt near lo.. nt tired oo? den 2nite act is me drive de den cnt le.. terpaksa ask angkao drive me home.. hehehe.. thx so much.. wonderland wat wat wat.. hemm.. forget le.. hehe.. rm5 to go in, say nt worth den no, say worth, nt rely oso.. hehe.. hav a crazy n enjoy nite 8 millions which b4 tis is 175. jz wondering y the fish don wan to bite us le.. hemmm.. our legs too clean edi.. XD after tt angkao drive us bck.... the tayar puncture(nt sure is spell lik tis ma? google translate de.. XD) under the rain we try to fix it, nt trying to mahuan anyone de, bt ngam ngam angkao's car don hav ka chang.. so.. terpaksa mahuan angkao's jie fu to help us which live near to matang.. feel so guilty lo.. coz my houz gt a lil far n owes mahuan ppl drive me.. hehe.. btw, gonna ask my daddy o mummy go check the car le coz i owes feel the car wana si huo si huo during i drive it, n i wan go check whether my car gt ka chang bo? hehe.. for safety.. rely thx for angkao.. ^^

home sweet home.. ^^

2010-12-13T00:37:00.003+08:00

i m home!!! lol.. i noe i hav been a long time din update my blog.. sory ya.. after few weeks exam.. act is few days la.. bt terpaksa stay 8 batu pahat for few weeks.. me cum bck to kch again.. hohoho.. bt tis time mol excited.. coz mozly fren cum bck le.. hohoho... den 2 day yan fei n yiin go pick me 8 airport.. oh.. so touch... miss fei so much.. less yiin n yan less.. lol.. coz laz few week gt met yan n yiin bt nt fei.. hehe.. fei say me bcum mol beautiful le.. hoho.. nt oli one time she say tt ooo.. XD hemmm.. b4 cuming bck go to melaka n hav fun wif coursemate.. awesome.. 美丽的地方跟对的人去，风景会是更美的，不美的地方跟对的人去还是会漂亮的。。^^ lol.. hemmm.. wan to kp fit.. lol.. tis word i say from form1 til nw stil din success to do it.. haha.. plus tis time cum bck gonna eat lots of hao liao again.. praying tt i wun gain fat.. XD

二十四

2010-11-25T06:35:00.003+08:00

time running..

一天二十四个小时，一千四百四十分钟，八万六千四百秒。

够用吗？

是不够用？还是一直都是我在浪费时间？？

把时间都花在了，吃，睡，上网。

food...

书，没在念。

功课，没在做。

该做的，都没做。

不该做的，都做了。

这算是堕落吗？

还是只是没动力？

心，永远不在书本上。

头脑，永远只在玩乐上。

books???

倒数着假期的到来，

却忘了大考在假期前。

先来后到总有排序，

可假期总喜欢插队。

先苦后甜人人懂，

先甜后苦人人做。

该读书时在玩乐，

在考试时叫苦连天。

or fun???

总是埋怨时间不够，

却忘了之前是谁浪费。

怎么办？

谁来提醒我别做杀手？

提醒我别再做时间杀手。。

enuf time??

2010-11-12T00:01:00.002+08:00

懒惰

慢慢的

一点点的

吞没我的神经细胞

我真的好懒啊。。。

7.11.2010 sunday

2010-11-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

2day is my daddy birthday n oso dear yan de birthday.. bt den daddy nt 8 home so bo bian.. cnt celebrate wif my beloved daddy.. den i ajak py bt py tml hav exam, i ajak ong bt ong nd to work.. den others nt in kch.. so x nd to mention.. lol.. XD so i decide to celebrate for her me myself, ong pass me the present n ask me to pass to yan, den i jz go to buy present tis evening b4 go to her houz, den go taka to buy a small cake for her.. hehe.. owes though tt yan jz same age wif us, forget jor is her 21st birthday.. ^^ lol.. bt den nvm.. hehe.. after sing birthday song for yan den i hav dinner 8 yan houz, home cook owes the best!! lol.. after tt we both hide into the room n watch drama, den go hav supper, plan to go 3rd miles to hav kueh chap who noe too late edi kueh chap cloz edi, den go hui sing thr c stil hav kueh chap ma? who noe, mozly shop oso cloz le.. lol.. after tt we ate kolo mee, we both share a bowl of kolo mee.. diet?? no la.. jz nt tt hungry.. hehe..^^ othough jz 2 of us bt den our topic jz none stop... kp chatting.. lol.. she ask me to overnite bt den cnt coz tml my mum stil nd to use car.. so bo bian.. oh ya.. when i go yan houz omoz bei yan de dog xia si.. lol.. tt bubu rely bad.. XD lol.. waiting for dec when mozly fren cum bck.. hoho.. den wana go sing k n go bako!!! hohoho..

5.11.2010 fri

2010-11-05T23:03:00.003+08:00

lol.. gt ppl ask me to update my blog, n vry hou lian pi de ask me write her in my blog.. hahaha.. XD tt day go wif py n her fren for movie, rise of the mummy, a comedy, nt bad, bt... gt leng zai py acc is the moz important.. 2day go to hav breakfast 8 zhen gong fu wif yan, yiin n yiin de fren, quite leng de lo.. haha.. py say nt leng she oso wun bring her home to stay, haha.. long time din go zhen gong fu le.. nice nice.. early morning after send my mum to work den i go to yan thr n chit chat wif her.. hoho.. long time no c stil many thg to chat.. hehe.. py fren so cute.. cuter den py, XD n py houz de puppies damn cute la.. bt den when grow up liao nt cute le leh.. i told my mum tt py's puppies so cute den my mum said, den u ask those puppies don grow up lo.. -.- swt dao.. after hav breakfast send them bck.. hemmm, when i go my sis sch to fetch her, make me in a traffic jam, shud say i m the one who cause traffic jam, den gam gam met tiok my xiao shu bck frm kl de, he cum down n help me drive, so paiseh.. lol.. bo bian, my skill stil nt tt gd, my xiao shu drive 8 kl de leh.. kai wan xiao?? haha.. my xiao shu goin to marry le, congratz, he n his gf many yrs edi lo.. ^^ mayb i hav the chance to attend his hun li, coz 8 kl.. hehe.. hemmm, my daddy n yan birthday is on tis sun, don huai yi, their birthday on the same day, bt den my daddy tt day jz go bck to work, so tis sun i gonna to celebrate wif yan.. shhh.. hehe.. ^^

forget to say...

2010-10-30T23:26:00.001+08:00

forget to say.... my mx din get full mark.. oli get 36/40.. make me so so so disappointed on myself.. dono y i so kless.. haizz.. 心情久久未能平复。。。。

hohohohoho.. hahahahaha..

2010-10-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

lol.. yaya.. i noe i omoz crazy edi, bt bobian.. too happy edi.. XD me at home nw!!! act few days ago edi home la.. tt day go johor senai airport den use 1 hr n 20mins to bck to kch.. wohoo!!! hemm.. wan to thx my houzmate ooi, rely thx her, she treat me for my lunch n oso purposely bring me to airport.. touch~ hehe.. having nice meal 8 johor, pic ah.. next time jz upload ba.. den after i bck kch.. i ate my beloved kolo mee.. hohohoho.. so so so nice.. bck home, ate mummy made de 蜜蜂窝。。 nice。。after tt the next day daddy bought a new hp for me coz mine omoz rosak.. kolian my x hp, drop so many times edi nw stil cn function jz tt gt a lil sot sot so nd to change edi.. new hp is X2 model, nokia, RM350, honestly i stil lik my k810i mol, coz the new hp de camera rely.. nt tt gd.. bt nvm, gt hp use den ok le.. ^^ after tt go 101 hav dinner, oh gosh, i ate til so full, i ate cha kueh, pork satay, fried kuew tiaw, 煎饺, bak kuk teh.. nice!!! kch food rely nice nice nice!!! after tt go shopping.. hoho.. gt ppl pay leh.. XD den 2day my mum cook 猪脚 n biling。 oh.. my beloved du ka.. n quite a long long time din eat biling edi.. hemm.. forget to say i drive 2day.. hoho.. luckily my driving skill din 退步.. hehe.. tml goin to make 米包米 .. hohoho.. den ask mummy cook 虾煎(ppl de is 'o a jian'), n wan to eat salad!! 8 jb memang less eat vegetable n fruits.. hoho.. hohohoho.. so so so happy.. gt so many nice thg eat.. wakakaka.. XD my mum say i m growing fatter so don wan to cook nice thg for me eat.. bt she stil cook for me act, jz say say using mouth.. bt den my grandma, uncle n aunt them all say me slim jor bo.. hw come?? my weight oso gain edi ooo.. hehe.. bt nvm.. cn eat jiu hao le.. wakakakaka.. oh ya.. date wif py hav breakfast on next fri which is 5 of nov.. ^^ hemmm.. quite many ppl nt in kch nw.. wana go out oso don hav ppl acc.. bt nvm.. kch is stil the best!!! i love kch!!!

home..

2010-10-26T20:45:00.003+08:00

sry coz long time din update.. i noe.. hehe.. bt bo bian.. tons of test n assignment to do.. nw.. wow.. relax edi.. rely miss my home.. hehe.. kolian my sis cnt go bck jz coz her lecturers all bad guys.. she stil hav 2 test n 2 presentation to go.. she cried to my mummy on phone jz bcoz she cnt go bck.. haizz.. tis time go bck act is for celebrate her 21st birthday.. who noe? kesiannya.. hemm.. having mx test tt day, having confidence to get full mark bt make me feel so so nervous coz scare tt i wil disappointed.. tml is the time result out.. oh gosh.. lecturer say vry few ppl get full oli.. T.T praying.. XD oh ya.. i found sumthg in uni, tt is, do everythg in laz min, noe wat, i act wil hav my presentation using slide show by tml, den i plan to do it 2nite, bt den lecturer suddenly change to fri morning?! oh gosh, i m goin bck on thurs edi la.. the presentation gt marks de leh.. so bo bian, bincang bincang, conclusion is do it tis afternoon.. WAT???!!! tis afternoon? den jz noe it tis morning, n we wil hav claz til 2pm n the presentation start 3pm while my slide nt yet done?? shud say nt yet start.. is lik.. O.o unbelievable.. hemm.. wifout wasting too much time on it go bck change formal wear den rush bck for claz.. i use bout one hr to finish all of them.. sum time rely admire myself, so short de time oso cn do so many work.. wakakaka.. ' shiok sendiri' XD

死亡。

2010-10-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

死亡真的离我们好近好近。。

我总是跟自己说，

即时，我忽然走了。。

我没关系。。

因为我每一刻都没让自己后悔。。

可是，这一刻，

我好想好想我最爱的妈妈

如果。。

我忽然的走，

最不甘心的，

就是没好好爱我妈妈。。

我爱她，

却没有认真表达过。。

刚刚忍不住，

打给她。。

差一点，差一点。。

泪就往下流了。。

我到底是这么了？？

最近总是想妈妈。。

sunday 4.21am

2010-10-10T04:21:00.002+08:00

wondering y i kp slp late.. ppl kp askin me to slp early bt i stil owes slp late.. wondering.. don ask me y i cnt slp so late.. i oso dono.. the day before yest, i send a msg for my mum, 10sumthg, told her i miss her, she slp edi.. jz wan to say i miss her.. den 2day, shud say yest nite, she call me, ask me wat happen? i use a happy tone told her i miss her so much.. don dare to let her noe i cried.. she told me she kp having headache, go for doc doc said she has high blood pressure.. so kp having headache.. my heart broken.. i cnt do anythg, cnt bring her go for doc, cnt help her do houzwork, cnt help her fetch kai n wei, i cnt do anythg.. hw useless m i?? i stil wondering.. wondering prefer to get far away frm houz is a correct way o nt?? me myself say nvr regret for wat i had decide.. bt.. i feel lik regret frm getting far away frm mummy. jz noe tt i m such a mummy gal.. is hard to be independent.. i wish i would nvr grow up, forever is my mummy gal..

又想家了。。

2010-10-08T22:15:00.003+08:00

到了极限了

仍然一直忍耐

很想很想

回家

很想很想

听见妈妈的声音

却迟迟不敢拿起手机

害怕听见妈妈声音的瞬间

泪会往下流。。

好怕好怕

泪会控制不住

拼命往下流。。

好想回到以前

还没成熟的我。。

可以毫无保留的

在妈妈面前流泪。。

可是现在我还怕了

害怕在妈妈面前流泪了。。

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我好像变得好脆弱

泪水像是遇上雨季

拼命的往下流。。。。

坏了。。

2010-10-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

好像。。

什么都坏了

手表坏了

书包坏了

拖鞋坏了

心情也坏了。。

反反复复

复复反反

听着同一首歌

看着同一个地方

头脑完全放空

心中只有歌词

久久。。

没能回神。。

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没关系，不是你的问题。。

只是我没那福气。。

没福气却又爱上了你。。 ^^

选择

2010-10-01T23:01:00.003+08:00

选择往往是困难的。因为总会担心做错选择。。

其实做选择没有对与错。。也别后悔会选错。。

话说

有一个女人有个交往三年的男朋友，感情冷淡下来了，这是出现了另一个男生。就让男朋友为A，男生为B。

女生不知道要选谁，结果她选了A，可是后来的日子依然在吵吵闹闹中度过，最后又拖了两年，最后还是分了。。而，B也有了另一个女友，到现在依然很幸福很甜蜜。。女生后悔了，后悔为什么当初不选B。她祈求上天再给她多一次机会。让她做多一次选择。。

上天答应了。。但是，结果却不是她想要的，她和B依然过得不好，因为两个人的性格并不相配。。甚至还坏过之前那一段感情。。她更后悔了。。

所以做选择千万别怕对与错，也不要后悔，因为你永远不会知道你的另一个选择会是对还是错。。你永远不知道或许你现在的选择是比你另一个选择好一千倍，即使现在的情况再坏。。只要你相信，现在的选择是对的，即使再坏，都会好过另一个选择，不后悔自己的选择。。与其把时间浪费在后悔上，倒不如把往后的每一秒都让自己更开心，更充实。。

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潇洒。。

人都说我很潇洒，

我不认为，

因为我也会因为在意某些事情，

在意到心痛，

在意到流泪，

在意到我真的好想好想回去。。

可是，我却不会埋怨为什么我当初做了这个选择，

因为那是我自己的决定，

我有能力做出决定我就有能力承担后果。

我告诉自己后悔并不能让我倒回从前，

但快乐却能让我充实的过每一天。

我们永远也不会知道另一个选择的结局是什么？

有谁会知道另一个选择会比现在的选择好呢？

或许另一个的结局比现在这个更不好呢？

又有谁会知道呢？

所以当你认为现在过得不好时，

别认为当初做得选择是错的，

因为，或许当初你选择另一条路时，

现在的你是更痛苦的。。

我并不潇洒，

我只想快乐的过每一天。。

泪流过就算了。。

我还是那个快乐的我。。^^

27.9.10 sunday

2010-09-27T01:27:00.002+08:00

yest go prom nite.. din enjoy much act... jz took many photos.. wif leng zai.. ^^ hemm.. 2day go out, houzmate de admire bring us go shopping.. ^^ nice.. hehe.. den din finish my ass.. so 2day burn midnite oil.. hoho.. oh.. i found tt malaysia rely small leh.. my fren hr is my primary sch claz mate de gf leh.. den my ns fren is my houzmate's fren's gf.. wow.. lol.. rely small.. wil hav a quite bz period frm nw i thk..

2 management assignment

1 management test

1 moral assignment

1 mx assigment

1 golf test

1 penilaian assignment( coming soon )

oh gosh... so many.. haiz... n sum is wif 10 person a grp de. hw to do work wif so large grp de ppl oo?? susahnya.. sum mol mix wif malays.. cnt communicate wif mandarin.. hard leh... bt den... gambateh~ ^^

对不起。。让你孤单了。。

2010-09-22T01:11:00.006+08:00

对不起

电话铃声响起。。

是她。。

传来耳边的。。

是她落寞的声音。。

细述着她孤单一人。。

心头一紧。。

心疼了。。

她的声音是多么的寂寞。。

也苍老了。。

强颜欢笑的。。

故作自然的与她聊天。。

控制着自己。。

别把不快乐带给她。。

在我需要她时，

她毫不犹豫地陪着我。。

毫不保留的为我付出。。

而我，在她需要我时，

在她出声留住我时。。

我毫不留情的转身离去。。

说着。

我是为了我的梦想。。

但我却忘了，

她也有梦想的。。

她的梦想在我们的出现后

就深深地埋藏在心底。。

把我们变成她的梦想。。

妈妈。。

对不起，让你孤单了。。

没有人陪我过中秋节。。

也没有人陪你过中秋节。。

我又想你了。。

怎么办？

你是孤单的对吧。。

以前。。

你的声音没有孤单的。。

现在。。

你的声音传来阵阵的。。

孤单的味道。。

是我让你孤单了吧。。

是我转身离你而去了吧。。

是我不好对吧。。

是我辜负了你对吧。。

对不起。。

我爱你。。

除了对不起。。

几乎。。

其他的都不该说了。。

让你孤单了。。。

bck to hostel le...

2010-09-21T01:24:00.007+08:00

泪。。流多了就不珍贵了。。

i noe i shud update my blog le.. hehe.. thk to write a long post bt den.. dono start frm whr leh.. feel tt gt many thgs to write.. hw?? :p

well.. i go kl for 2weeks, nice~ go slp jen thr.. bt den don hav photo.. coz jen gt camera.. cnt show off my cyber shot. :p so if wan me wif jen n pangkor de pic go fb n jen's blog. hehe..

在吉隆坡的每一天都是充实的，一天去玩，一天休息。买了很多，也吃了很多。还好，我没变肥。。:p 可能因为吃得多，走的路也多。学会了很多，学会坐地铁，最后一天很坚持的要自己一个人搭地铁去车站，我知道危险，但我相信我能，是该学会独立了，不是每一分每一秒度有人可以给我依靠，虽然很多人都觉得我很小孩，什么都不会，可是当你放手时，我是什么都会的，对吧？？只是想多依靠而已。。学会了一些在吉隆坡做人，那就是，脸黑黑的面对每个不认识的人，不管是谁？^^ 然后很成功的，安全的抵达目的地。。我相信我是长大了。虽然不想面对这个事实，可是我还是长大了。在吉隆坡买了很多手信。搭堂姐拿回去了，妈妈说我有乱花钱了。。嘻嘻。。我只想对你们好一点，虽然我还没学会赚钱，但我已学会花钱了。嘻嘻。。去了邦格岛，超爱的~美中不足，我错过了浮浅。不过没关系，我相信我还有机会。虽然说自己长大，可是还是很喜欢玩。。下一站那里？槟城。。^^ 然后呢？？还在计划中。。 :p 回到了hostel，回到了需要努力的世界。。很不甘心，但我必须。。为了未来是吧？我的未来，茫然中。。现在暂时只想到。。玩！！！ :p 回hostel的前一天，我妈打来，向我投诉了种种。。她在家很寂寞吧。。弟弟妹妹总有自己的活动，最后只剩下她一个，以前总是陪在她身边的我，叛逆的离开她，对不起。。我想你。。自己躲在房间哭了。。还吓到了朋友。我还是不够坚强对吧？朋友问：为什么你自己躲在房间自己哭？我说：面对人，我有点哭不出，只有真真崩溃时才会吧。。面对妈妈无助的声音，努力控制自己的眼泪。。责怪这自己的无情。。我爱你妈妈。。我想你。。对不起。。我现在才发现，原来我尽然没有妈妈的照片，回家要拍多多她的照片，放在电脑，放在电话。。中秋快到了，就在明天，后天考试。。hemm..我大学了吧。。身边的朋友都有了伴侣，问我羡慕吗？讲没有是骗人的，少许是会吧。。可是没有想过要找，有个念头是，我要做工了才找。。嘻嘻。。顺其自然吧。。有时候看到他们会觉得单身也是很好的。嘻嘻。。:p 答应过要放照片吧？当当当~哦，jen 我忽然想到那天下雨天我们做了疯狂的事情，忘了拍照，在大庭广众大跳。。。答浪答浪答浪答浪~哈哈。。好怀念噢。。我的照片乱跳的，将就点吧。。嘻嘻。。

suddenly find tis.. hehe.. eggs~ miss u..

ns frens~ miss lots.. ^^

affected by jen.. lik to camwhore ki.. bt den.. stil no skill.. ignore others.. i m listening to song n updating my blog.. ^^

nice sunset when me n jen goin bck to kl frm pangkor..

nice rite?? thk to buy for my bro.. bt 68.. hemmm.. i spend lots edi.. hehe..

gt a lil blur.. bt.. gt c ah gid thr?? hehe.. :p

tis one is after my ice skating wif ns frens.. hoho.. 跌得痛也跌得爽！！！别说我变态，跌过就懂了。。

我可以说是伤痕累累的回到batu pahat..但我没白过我的假期。。超爽！！！还要！！！

me wif rebecca..^^

sweetie wif sally mummy~^^

me n my beloved sally mummy~ ^^

rebecca~

satisfy wif my update?? hehe.. shud b long enuf.. ^^ nw is 3am in the morning edi.. jz nw slp for 2 hrs.. don feel lik slp.. so.. do assignment.. :) hemm.. i nd to practice my eng mol.. my broken eng.. haiz...

13.9.10 monday

2010-09-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

tis two weeks me at kl.. so don hav time update my blog.. shud say don hav line hr oso.. hehe.. cum hr for bout a week edi.. shud say mol den a week edi.. cum hr go shopping, go eat, go play, n learn hw to use ktm, lrt n monorail.. hoho.. well.. i bought a dress for prom nite edi.. hoho.. n oso bought many shou xin for family.. oli daddy's nt yet buy.. dono wana buy wat. tt day go out wif ns fren.. hehe.. my dear sally mummy n oso chui lin.. all grow pretty n pretty le.. hehe.. den we all go for ice skating. oh gosh.. so many ppl coz is satuday plus public hol. n so much ppl make me owes fall down.. fall down 7 times wifin 3 hrs.. n my leg o che le.. so big de o che.. wait me go bck johor den wil upload the pic. hoho.. even vry painful bt den stil vry satisfy.. coz i lik ice skating n miss my ns fren lots.. after tt sun go watch piranha wif jen, oh gosh.. me n jen don wan to eat fish on tt day.. coz so disgusting. so xue xin.. heard tt gt lil kids vomit after watch tt movie.. den tml i m goin to pulau pangkok.. hoho.. bt den me cnt play water.. coz.. my daddy say gt jelly fish n wil cause itchy. so go thr cc n play play n eat eat.. i heard tt pangkok famous wif seafood!!! hohoho.. my eyes bling bling when i heard food.. hoho.. no wonder i m growing fatter n fatter.. bt nvm, food is the most important.. wakakaka.. hemm.. gt sum photo wana post.. bt den wait me bck johor ba.. hehe..

无题。。

2010-09-04T03:40:00.004+08:00

深夜里。。

播放着爵士的音律。。

仿佛在异世界。。

没有思想。。

没有其他。。

只有爵士的旋律。。

脑子跟着爵士的旋律。。

转动着。。

想家~

2010-09-03T20:40:00.003+08:00

人家问：你家在哪里？

说：砂劳越。人

说：哇！好远哦。。

我说：哪里会，很近阿，要游泳过去而已嘛。。

其实心里知道家真的很远。。

第一次离家这么远，这么久。。

一切是自己想要的。。

现在实现了。。

没有后悔。。

只有浓浓的思念。。

又想家了。。

寂寞

2010-09-01T02:47:00.003+08:00

茫茫人海

周围是色彩的

只有自己是黑白

茫茫人海

跟随着所有人

却发现心是孤单

茫茫人海

有笑脸有哭脸

自己的却是麻木

茫茫人海

孤单被赶走了

寂寞却走进心里

忘了有多久~

2010-09-01T01:36:00.003+08:00

忘了有多久

没有用话语释放我的心情

忘了有多久

把自己当鸵鸟不面对事实

忘了有多久

没有真真面对我的不愉快

忘了有多久

没有拿下面具让脸孔呼吸

忘了有多久

没好好让孤单陪伴我过夜

忘了有多久。。。。

爵士的音律

陪伴着自己

细细的旋律

慢慢的享受

探索着心情

提醒着自己

什么是重要的。。。

爵士的音律

陪伴着自己

让黑暗包围

拥抱着双膝

慢慢的品味

浓浓的寂寞

忘记不想记的。。。

29 August 2010 Sun

2010-08-29T22:47:00.006+08:00

is a sunday... 8 hr rely gt a lil bit pek cek during weekend coz owes nd to thk wat to eat for lunch n breakfast.. haizz.. coz weekend don hav wai mai oso.. kesian.. lazy to go out oso.. lol.. nd to pass up my law assignment after sept hol.. which mean i nd to done b4 hol o nt i cnt go play during hol.. n oso nd to study my economy. yeah!! left few mol days i wil b 8 kch le.. wakakaka.. wana go cheras, go sunway meet my ns fren n oso meet my dear jen jen.. after tt nd to buy dress for my prom nite, n mayb heels oso.. scare tt over budget ah.. stil nd to buy shou xin for my family.. huhu.. den go pangkok play!!! woo hoo!!! my fren say me rely pandai go to play.. dono me cum uni is for play o study.. den i told him i cum hr lawat sambil belajar.. wakakaka.. nice rite?? hehe.. having live alone outside.. SUAN!!! othough vry vry miss my mummy.. nw is for pic toking.. *random*

the book tt i do research for my law assignment.. oh gosh!! so thick!!!

undang undang ah~

haizzzz

property law ah~

me n leng lui~

my houzmate~

golf~ bt me nt in coz i m the camera lady~

we all made tang yuan together.. nice~

cat.. cute??

we~ gt one nick name.. 十人帮 haha..

random~

finish~ lol.. lantern festival is cuming.. cnt go home eat mooncake wif mummy.. bt i stil wil staring 8 the same moon wif my mum.. mummy.. cn feel my miss?? miss u lotz..

monday 23 august 2010

2010-08-23T20:44:00.002+08:00

lol.. tt day say hav a long time wun update blog bt nw update edi.. coz i finish moz of my assigment n oso had my test tis morning.. hemm.. stil ok wif my mx test.. n yest b4 test all of us nt study bt cook tang yuan to eat.. wakakaka.. eat tang yuan leh.. othough don hav pandan leaves bt den stil vry nice to eat.. hehe.. tt day steamboat yest tang yuan.. next time wat to cook?? any suggestion?? hehe..

20 august 2010 Friday

2010-08-21T00:54:00.003+08:00

fri.. after few days burn midnite oil to finish the preparation of presentation, 2day finally presented.. haizz.. nt rely gd. seem lik i tui bu le.. my presentation jz lik reading news. so lauzy.. i edi a uni student stil present lik tt. nd to improve myself le.. den lotz of assignment cuming~~~ ekonomi which make me vry headache coz i totally don hav econ base.. luckily my group member cn teach me.. den is mx test on mon.. test leh... occupy 15 marks in my final exam.. nd to study hard le.. my aim is 1st claz leh.. den is mx assignment, once giv assignment giv two leh.. the lecturer so geng!!! haizz.. wana us to die meh?? well, i thk uni wil owes hav tis kind of live.. i nd to suit to it rite? hemm.. left 2 mol weeks to go!! woo hoo!! is time to hol~~ holiday~ i m cuming hehe.. well.. my fren is watching me typing my blog n they say my hand so cute when i typing.. lol.. rely?? hehe.. *shy* :p i owes say tt i hav a vry vry nice sis.. wakakaka... :p i oli say tt i hav test on mon den i nd calculator, bt my calculator lost edi.. den~~~~ hehe.. she purposely go buy for me leh... so so so touch~~~ den purposely send to me leh... hehe.. shiok sendiri hr.. my sis so love me.. n i oso love u so much..well.. mayb nd to wait me for a long period after tis update.. coz.. i thk after tis wil so bz.. i nd to plus oil!!! :)

assignment??

2010-08-17T03:21:00.002+08:00

lol.. doin assignment? yup.. stil doin assignment 8 tis time.. act lecturer giv us the task jz when i start claz.. tis fri nd to present bt my grp jz start prepare tis week.. geng leh?? hemmm.. sum grp member rely.. haizz.. lol.. don wan to mention.. n my grp leader.. ok la..... well, my grp de all lazy de include me. hoho.. bt i hav done well for my own part bt nt everyone.. yest nite.. wrong.. shud say the day before yest i slpt 8 4am den wake up 6am for claz.. den stay 8 sch whole day til yest evening.. den slp 8 7pm til 9pm wake up den cnt slp until nw.. so decide to do sum assignment so tt wun hav tis situation again.. and.. i jz realise tt i hav left my pencil box in the Dewan kuliah!! OMG!!! my stuff all inside.. hopefully i m lucky to meet nice ppl tt wun take away my pencil box.. praying~ haizz.. y i so careless?? so big de ppl liao.. stil lik kids owes drop tis n tt.. T.T nw my life start to full wif assignment, quiz, and test.. bt den.. i stil so free tt owes on fb.. y ha?? dono.. lol.. hemm.. nw 3.30 edi.. i stil so so so energetic.. y ha?? i oli slp for 4 hrs for 2 days one nite leh .. count til nw la.. haizz.. i shud take gd k of myself.. don owes burn midnite oil liao.. :( hopefully wun fall aslp during tml law claz.. a damn boring claz.. even u hear the name edi feel slpy.. luckily lecturer encourage us to bring food so tt we wun fall aslp.. plus oil...

steamboat!!!

2010-08-12T01:04:00.003+08:00

hoho.. having steamboat in hostel.. which shud be illegal.. :p hemmm.. i noe my blog die for a while.. hehe.. sry.. nw i updating liao.. well.. start frm whr?? oh ya.. i m goin to pulau pangkok tis sept.. wakakaka.. goin to meet up my fren during sept.. meet my ns frens.. meet wif dear jen jen.. o mayb meet my cousin oso.. den 2nd week i m goin to pulau pangkok wif jen jen.. hoho.. :p hemm.. nw puasa edi.. whr i shud settle my lunch?? wondering... lol.. having mol n mol quiz n test n oso assignment edi.. stil hav one presentation nt yet settle ah.. haizzz... i nd to plus oil le.. hehe.. oh ya.. wil having prom nite.. ermmm.. dono when.. lol.. c gt handsome guy ma.. next yr may my frens wil go kch play le.. 15 ppl leh... walao... dono hw to settle their transport.. lol.. ask them to walk.. nd to plan whr they wan to go.. any gd idea?? hemm.. they oli cum for 4days 3nite.. nt much.. hehe.. wat else.. oh ya.. wan to tok bout my steamboat.. hoho.. it was the moz delicious food i hav 8 hr.. lol.. noe wat.. we do such a crazy thg.. we walk for a quite long distant jz for buy ingredient.. hehe.. go to wellward.. hemm.. is bout frm grss to sabarkas?? ermm.. i thk is longer.. lol.. coz don hav bus.. so kolian.. haha.. so crazy jz for eat steamboat.. 8 laz cnt finish all so take 2nd round 8 12am jz nw.. haha.. nice...^^

i cried..

2010-07-31T22:34:00.002+08:00

ya.. i cried.. finally agree wif sang tt no matter hw strong u r.. u wil stil cry.. 2day i hav join teong hua which is chinese club in my uni.. in the morning the paid broke n den don hav water n jz wil hav ppl cum to fix on mon.. after tt take van go to uni.. hav lots n lots of fun thr.. lol.. rely a nice program.. hehe.. den meet lots of new frens oso.. lol.. the program start frm morning 8 til 9pm.. so tiring bt so fun.. hehe.. den the 2nd laz pro make me cry.. they ask us to write our dreams.. den after tt they put sad sad song.. den they said sumthg bout family.. make us thk bout our family..... den i thk thk thk til feel wana cry.. bt i hold my eye tear.. n tt time act i lying on the floor.. den after tt my sis came wif holding tisu on her hand. after tt i cnt stand anymol.. i lay on my sis shoulder n cry lik hell.. so embarrassing.. i came hr for bout one month edi.. i din cry for once.. even when i sick n so so so miss home i oso din cry.. i though tt i strong enuf.. who noe.. the feeling jz store n store inside my heart.. n til jz nw.. i cnt stand anymol.. so i cry lik wat.. haiz.. every time i don wan to cry.. 8 my hostel dn wan to cry.. 8 my sis houz don wan to cry.. bt choose a public place to cry..i rely miss my home.. miss my mum.. rely rely miss her... haiz... luckily tt time is wif the light off.. bt den after tt my eye bengkak lik wat.. coz yest i slp 8 4.30am den cry lik tt..haizz.. every1 laughing 8 me.. :p

add on

2010-07-28T00:43:00.002+08:00

lol.. gt a lil add on after read sang sang blog.. i din cry.. rely din.. when i cum hr.. i ever feel wana cry bt i stop myself.. i feel wana cry when i was fever n when i toking to my mum.. her voice n her worry omoz make me cry.. n make me vry vry miss home.. bt den i don wan to let my mum wory me.. so.. i din at laz.. so... m i vry strong???? hohoho.. yup.. i m.. i strong enuf to survive outside.. :p ya.. i noe.. even my sis same uni wif me bt din owes meet her.. oli two week once go her thr acc her slp coz no one 8 her houz.. my mum wory so ask me go acc her.. hehe.. so proud of myself.. so nt bcoz same sch wif my sis so i din cry.. is bcoz i strong enuf so i din cry.. wakakaka.. :p

sick@homesick??

2010-07-27T22:44:00.003+08:00

i hate medicine!!! haizz... fever for 3 days n 2day finally ok ok.. hope tt wun cum bck.. lol.. few days din on9 edi.. coz of fever.. everyday jz slp slp n slp.. lol.. den 2day wan to on9 bt cnt on.. stupid line!!! noob line!!! haiz.. nw using fren's pc... every1 miss me rite? coz i din on9 for few days edi.. hehe.. :p during sick rely rely miss home.. omoz cry during phone to my mum.. T.T bt 8 laz din.. x nd to suspect.. rely one drop of eye tear oso din cum out.. lol.. i wan to back home!!! luckily i din say out.. o nt my eye tear wil follow my words out.. lol.. den few days blur blur blurrrr.. dono myself doin wat.. so so so pek chek.. lol.. jz few wana go home!!! i wan HOME!!!!! haizz.. din tell anyone pun accept my houz mate coz don wan my family too worry bout me.. bt den my mum stil vry worry bout me so i din tok much to her on hp scare tt i wil cry.. den she wil mol wory..don laugh don laugh!! u guys muz b laughing me coz i m so weak.. no matter mentally o physically.. haizz.. nvm.. jz laugh.. lol.. i noe i vry crazy nw.. tts the effect of eating too much medicine.. everyday jz go pku get free medicine.. lol.. hemmm.. tis is the road tt i choose myself so i nd to go through by myself rite?? bt den i stil hav my lovely family n my dear frenz support me.. u all my mental support.. hw lucky m i being at the world hr.. appreciate all i having nw.. well.. tts o for 2day.. miss u guys lotz.. mixu mixu.. cn accept my 'miss'??

huhuhu...

2010-07-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

huhu.. 2nite stay overnite 8 my sis home.. hemmm.. a small room oli... wif a single bed.. which mean i don hav bed to slp.. T.T lol.. bt nvm.. coz hr gt line for me to on msn n hav a video call wif my lovely mum... ohw... so so so miss her.. she told me tt nw oli gt 2 person 8 home.. my bro go for camp.. den everyday dono wana cook wat.. cook liao oso don hav ppl eat.. so jz cook maggie mee.. when i heard tt i so so so down.. sry mum.. cnt acc u.. i noe i myself wan to cum hr which mean i choose to nt stay 8 home.. den she said nw don hav ppl acc her go shopping edi.. tml my sis go for wat wat wat persembahan den mayb go for tuition.. so don hav ppl acc her.. sry.. mum.. i love u n i miss u.. well.. i omoz cry when i heard so.. n i omoz cry for writting tis.. i though tt i wun cry for home sick who noe i stil.. jz tt the timing nt yet cum.. well.. 8 laz i din cry.. lol.. hemm.. tok bout happy thg.. hehe.. wu hu!! tml go summit.. hoho.. go shopping.. c gt anythg cheap to buy.. hehe.. hemm.. nw i jz start my study n i start plan goin to play edi.. hoho.. i thk i stil nt rely suit myself in uni.. coz... mostly they say uni's frens r nt believable.. bt den i stil use to believe ppl.. haiz.. lol.. bt den.. 8 least til nw i stil quiet ok wif them.. hehe.. tts all for 2day.. jz wan to kp myself updating the blog for frens to noe tt i m fine hr.. hoho.. oh ya.. jz nw oso having webcam wif jen jen.. lol.. missing her oso.. frenz.. miss u guys oso.. r u guys miss me??

lalalala..

2010-07-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

copying yiin title..wakakaka..2day having claz 8 library de bilik kuliah.. the chair so nice..bt nt enuf to fit 81 of us.. bt den the library in my uni is the biggest library among others uni in malaysia.. nice??lol.. den after tt bck home.. den terus slp.. wakakak..coz laz nite slpt 8 3sumthg jz to complete my tutorial.. hehe.. den after tt we ask wai mai.. n i fall down..... T.T well me so jian qiang de din cry bt.... so shame la... let ppl c tiok.. lol.. den bleeding.. nt so painful act.. hehe.. well.. act i feel vry lucky tt i came hr.. coz hr gt many frens tt vry gd.. den gt the biggest library.. wat else?? i cn call wai mai.. eat pork ooo..wakakaka.. jz tt nd to owes walk under the sun n owes nd to wait for van o bus to go home.. lol.. quiet lik tis kind of life.. well.. kp positive thking guys.. hehe... den everythg wil b fine.. don owes thk negatively.. den everythg wil b bad.. so i m the one who owes cheers coz i thk positively.. n tt make my life easier n happy.. so gd wat.. lol.. i noe my language gt a lil cacat.. hehe.. u guys don mind la ho?? :p

18 July 2010 Sunday

2010-07-19T01:11:00.004+08:00

is time to update my blog so tt u guys wil owes miss me.. wakaka.. hemmm.. 2day try to wake up early so tt i wil finish my hw b4 i go out.. at 1st thk tt don wan to go out if i din finish my hw.. hemm .. shud say tutorial.. bt den my sis say she wil go bp mall aso.. *bp mall=batu pahat mall* so i gonna meet her.. i reached hr for two weeks edi include 2day oli meet her for 3 times.. the 1st day tt she come wif me den din meet her til sat she go met me for a while.. so 2day go out to meet her.. lol.. o nt mum wil scold me din miss family again.. :p oh ya.. tell u guys one thg.. my jeans is 破洞 bcoz i lazy to cum down wear my jeans n jz change on my bed.. yaya.. jz laugh.. i noe.. my houz mate oso laugh lik crazy ppl.. lol.. so i go bp mall 2day n get a jeans for myself.. lol.. n hemm.. jz nw stil hav many thg want to write de nw forget le.. oh ya. wan to say i go bp mall ate pizza hut wif my sis oo.. hoho.. next week plan to go her thr slp coz her roommate wil go bck so i nd go thr acc her.. den after i go bck to my home.. i c my houz mate watching drama.. call 掌上明珠.. den so kin teo.. so i jz sit down n watch til jz nw.. lol.. which mean i nt yet finish my hw.. bt i wil finish it l8r.. i don wan to 拖 edi.. lol.. Jen Jen.. i oso wan to go Damai.. lol.. miss u guys la.. miss my family, miss my mum, miss u guys.. miss jen, miss yiin, miss sang, miss fei, miss yan, miss bert, miss my moo moo, miss dam dam... n many many.. haizz.. cnt finish name all.. too much tt i miss edi.. lol.. so.. miss me oso ooo... :)

UNI LIFE! 大学生活。。

2010-07-12T20:40:00.018+08:00

我知道。。我的博客死了很久，现在重生了。。呵呵。。第一天去到，很多人都说我的宿舍跟其他的宿舍比起来我的很差，第一天去到，真的觉得我好倒霉哦。。住这么差的宿舍。。哈哈。。可是之后就不会了。。还觉得我很幸运，因为全部都是华人，我的新家是一间单层排屋，三个房间，两个厕所，只是冲凉时要赶而已。然后第一个星期好忙好忙哦。晚上都一两点才睡，一天睡三四个小时而已，这个活动其实还蛮开心的，有的玩，没得睡，哈哈。。然后，我参加了一个叫coral speaking的presentation.还要在所有新生的面前表演，我的天啊！有大概两千多个人啊！本来我是没有参加的后来我表哥讲很好玩所以就参加了，起初我还怪他害我每天不够睡（要排练）。可是后来真的觉得很好玩，尝试着新东西，呵呵。。然后我也病了，不严重，就是咳嗽和伤风而已，吃了药整天昏昏沉沉的。哈哈，听‘大粒’人讲话时就开始睡了，呵呵。。我觉得我的适应力还蛮好的，嘻嘻。开始适应着这里的一切。我很想很想家，可是我没哭，我来这边一个星期多了，可是我没有一直找我姐，因为我有了朋友，我并没有觉得自己孤单，所以我没哭，我的室友都问我为什么我打电话都没哭？？（她们都哭了）:p 我也不知道为什么，就是没哭。。这里有个地方不好就是。。这里会没有水用！！！哈哈。。现在我在这个大家庭里，要互相照顾四年哦。。

My choral speaking group :)

hemm.. tis one so blur.. bt i lazy to upload another one.. so.. hehe.. nvm la.. :p

choral speaking group oso.. bt.. nt all in.. :) a nice experience for me..

guys frm choral speaking.. hemmm.. don hav vry handsome de i noe.. haha..

tis one is we too boring n play tis til crazy.. lol..

hemm.. nt vry clear oso.. bt cn read the word rite?? my house mate de.. haha..

so full de emergency box.. bt don hav thg for stop bleeding.. oli for sakit sakit.. haha..

li hai ma?? tis oso gt bring, the whole box leh.. lol.. my houz mate de oso..

cute? another houz mate de..

hemm.. i noe my pic gt a lil messy.. bt.. 8 least i upload.. haha.. so.. hehe..

one of my houz mate is kitty fans.. lol.. one series de leh...

her laptop oso.. n even her umbrella.. bt i din take de photo.. lol..

lol..c hw many thg tt they b.ring.. lol.. wonder hw they pindah next time.. haha..

wahhhhh.. sedapnya.. u guys muz though tis mine rite?? bt nt.. lol..

cute?? yiin ah.. i found u in my houz.. hahha...

tis is my room.. so messy rite?? gals room is lik tt.. haha.. hemm.. my messy spell correct??

tt one gt blue blue colour de is mine.. n gt notice tt don hav tetangga?? so everyday i go up using tt chair.. haha..

tis one is the study table.. bt nt mine.. lol..

hr oso..

wah... their tables so full......

notice the table tt hav the less thg?? n so messy de?? lol.. tts mine... they o ask me.. y u table don hav thg de ha?? lol...

hemm.. mix wif others pic again.. moo moo.. i found u in Batu Pahat Mall.. lol..

yiin ah.. i found u again lo.. every place cn find u.. lol..

py py py... lol..

cute??

hoho..

moo moo... is u again..

moo moo moo moo

me wif my roomate.. a nice gal..

guess who is tis?? my cousin.. lol...

lol.. mix wif choral speaking pic again.. lol..

my fancilities... thx them lots when our minggu haluan mahasiswa baru..

tis one oso..

my houz mate..

my fancilities...

tis one oso.. my cousin oso one of my fancilities.

my choral speaking grp oso.. nice person.. othough r malays.. lol.. they so funny...

notice tt leng lui?? one of my houz mate oso.. hoho..

hemmm.. so blur de pic.. bt i cn tell u tt he is Badawi.. cum to our uni.. lol..

tis one is me myself.. lol.. the end.. for the pic.. fb oso gt many my pic.. others tag de la.. hehe..

well.. everythg is fine hr jz tt sumtime don hav water.. den the food hr mostly malay food.. bt den.. 2day we cal wai mai.. hoho.. gt pork to eat.. wakakkaa.. i miss porkkkkk.. haha.. u ppl muz b asking hr gt ntg to eat i gt bcum slimmer ma?? the ans is... no... i stil remain the same.. coz othough don hav nice thg to eat i stil wun let myself staving.. hoho.. anyway.. i jz wondering y i nt bcum slimmer..coz me everyday walk for a long distance in my sch.. n go hr n thr.. n sumtime lost in sch compound.. y i din get slimmer?? i din increase my volume of food leh.. haha.. wondering.. everyone gt miss me ma?? miss u guys la... my mum kp on scolding me y i din go find my sis.. coz i gt frens ma.. don wan go mahuan her.. lol.. n my mum kp scolding me coz seldom call bck home.. hemmm.... dono y.. jz seldom.. i vry miss my mum miss my daddy.. miss my sis miss my bro.. jz tt i din call.. lol.. i m trying to bcum mol n mol independent.. lol.. so i din cry.. hehe..n showing the photo jz to let u guys noe.. i m doin fine hr.. x nd to wory bt miss me oo.. hehe.. take k oo every1.. i wil b bck during oct.. hoho..

26.06.10 星期六

2010-06-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

呵呵。。好久好久没有看到moo moo 了。。

超想他的。。

昨天跟moo moo, jen, bert去看戏。

看戏前去吃mum mum 。。好棒哦。。

然后去看toy story 3, 虽然我是没有看一和二可是我还是觉得蛮好看的。

之后，我们去机场的mcd吃，

我们竟然在那里聊了差不多两个小时。。

之后，我就跟jen回家。。

我和她从北聊到东，

从东聊到西，

从西聊到南，

真是无所不谈。。

聊到大概四点多才睡。。

真的有点佩服自己。。哈哈。。

有个什么都能聊的朋友并不多。。

如果你们身边有一个这样的朋友要珍惜哦。。

然后我发现到我很想很想moo moo leh....

昨天才见面今天就想他了。。

哈哈。。

moo moo... mixu mixu... hehe..

想想还真很久没看到他了。。

有大概四个月吧。。

本来只有偶尔想到他。。

可是昨天见面后今天就超想他的。。

是不是因为太怀念以往的生活了？

怀念中学时候的我们。。

怀念一起嘻哈玩闹的日子。。

就快要上大学了。。

心情真的很复杂。。

我相信大家都一样吧。。

有喜，有悲，有茫然，有不舍。。

以往的朋友已不能常常在一起了。

在想。。

有了新生活后会不会逐渐的被遗忘及遗忘大家呢？

多多少少会一点吧。。

就快离开古晋了。。

我想我最不舍的是家人吧。。

以后就没有和弟妹吵吵闹闹的声音了。。

以后就少了妈妈的唠唠叨叨声了。。

以后就少了妈妈味道的菜了。。

然后是朋友吧。。

少了出来打打闹闹的日子。。

少了一起聊天八卦的日子。。

少了一起吃喝玩乐的日子。。

大家还会习惯吗？

会不习惯吧。。

但是加油哦。。

在不同的地方。。

抬头望着同样的天空。。

努力生活，

努力想念大家。。

Leaving soon......

2010-06-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

ya.. tt day get the news tt i wil goin to uthm.. finally put down the stone in my heart(lauzy eng i noe).. goin to johor.. havin my sis my two cousins thr.. rely nt much to scare bout.. thking tt.. m i rely go away frm protection.. nt rely.. everythg my sis jz settle for me.. n i m too lazy to settle them myself.. well well.. oli tt i don hav mummy to cook n kemas for me.. goin to semenanjung to meet my ns frens.. happy.. bt den my fren hr.. hemm.. i thk mostly seperate edi.. haiz.. haiz.. asking wat my feeling nw?? happy? sad? nervous? i oso dono.. i thk is o mix up edi.. hemm.. tis few days kp buying needs for goin uni.. walao.. rely vry scary leh.. especially air ticket.. one go is bout rm196.. den cum bck during cny? is rm 109.. goin.. is rm296.. walao eh.. so so so expensive.. my mum rely spend lots for me.. haiz.. den u noe me la.. usually don wan shop for cloths de.. nw nd all collar shirt.. spend money again.. haiz haiz.. wat else? dono leh... lol.. so nw i kp on saving money.. wrong.. shud say kp on reduce spending money.. hemm.. so.. sry ya fren.. i nd to reduce my outgoin time.. hehe..

celebrate yiin birth

2010-06-15T01:54:00.003+08:00

yaya.. i noe.. my blog dead for a long time edi.. coz.. i bz.. wakakaka.. bz wat? watching movie.. wakakaka.. 0wes watch til midnite 2 o 3 n jz nw kenak marah by jen coz my blog too dead edi.. hehe.. sry sry... hemmm.. jz nw go celebrate yiin birthday wif jen sang fei n yan.. long time din c them lo.. miss them a lot... fei say me bcum sexy ki.. wakakaka.. rely o nt oo?? hemmm.. jen ah.. do i rely bcum sexy ki? lol.. bt den i seem to gain weight lo.. nw is sixty four edi lo.. so so so heavy.. hemmm.. yiin ah.. sry tt i cn acc u go watch movie n cnt acc u go beach oo.. coz time cnt match ooo. yiin.. is tt cake nice? i forget wat name edi oo.. r u happy 2nite? act i don wan to let u noe tt 2day we wil celebrate ur birthday de bt scare u don wan cum so jz tell u lo.. lol.. hehe.. i lik the mushroom sup thr leh.. nice... hehe.. bt 2day wan to celebrate my fathers day de bt fail coz my aunt organised a dinner for them. which make me so disappointed coz my dad wil go serikei by wed edi.. n when i bck home.. my car rosak at half road.. T.T so so so bad.. haizz.. luckily is near to my houz edi.. bt stil so scary lo.. coz so dark.. no light.. n no cars sum mol.. haiz.. den i even don dare to open the window.. wait til my dad cum.. haiz.. den after tt me n daddy push the car to the nearest coffee shop n.. i m wearing high heels which make my leg so painful.. T.T .. one good news.. tis wednesday is my last working day.. wakakakaka...

9.5.2010 love mother day!!

2010-05-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

2day is mothers day.. woho!!! mum.. i love u!! i bring my mum go eat oo.. othough is eat again.. bt.. oso is gt xim ba.. hehe..

故事一则

有一个婴儿即将出生，可是他不懂婴儿自己的本分是什么？

于是他便问神：“我该怎么做呢？？”

神说：“别担心。。我会派天使去保护你，教导你，照顾你，直到她认为你能够自己独立为止。。”

他又问：“他是谁呢？”

神说：“她的名叫“妈咪”，她会好好守护着你。。”

故事二则

有个小孩A在学校听朋友B说他在家里帮妈妈扫地妈妈就给了他五零吉，

然后小孩A回到家就开始帮妈妈扫地，抹地，洗碗，洗衣。。

然后就做功课，

之后他便写了一张字条给妈妈。。

说：扫地两块钱，

抹地两块钱，

洗碗两块钱，

洗衣两块钱，

自动自发做功课两块钱。。

然后贴在冰柜上面。。

妈妈回家时看见了。。

没有给钱却也写了一张字条贴在冰柜。。

字条上说：每天在你上学无价，

每天为你准备早餐午餐晚餐无价，

每天为你洗衣无价，

每天为你整理床铺无价，

每星期为你洗鞋无价，等等等。。

人说，你还我钱我就为你做事。。

但世界上却有一个人会无私无悔的付出，

而不求一丝回报。。

她只会不断地付出，直到她离开为止。。

她唯一要求的事，是我们好好照顾自己。。

做个有用的人。。

她就是妈妈。。

妈妈，

原来你是我的天使，

不管我多任性，

不管我脾气多坏，

你都对我不离不弃。。

不管多累，

你都会为我们打点一切，

不管多辛苦，

你都会让我们过上好生活。。

虽然有时啰嗦了一点，

但那是你对我们的关怀，

对我们的担心。。

虽然有时会打我们骂我们，

但那是你要我们变好一点，

让我们变独立一点。。

妈妈，我的天使。。我爱你。。

世上最无悔的爱是你对我的爱。。

6.5.10 星期四

2010-05-07T00:44:00.002+08:00

hehe.. hi everyone..

i noe i hav been so long din update my blog edi..

n tonite i lazy to use mandarin so i use my poor eng to update my blog...

hehehe...

2day i go zhen gong fu again..

coz jen wan to go..

bt 2day de standard gt a lil bit decrease..

nt as nice as tt day edi lo..

dono is changing chef again ma?

den tis sun i wil go again to celebrate mothers day..

hoho.. n my mum oso bring her mum which is my grandma go oso..

celebrate together..

tis morning i go drive jen..

bt.. i awake late..

den i reach jen houz 8 bout 9 edi lo..

den jz found tt i din inform yiin wats the time n i quickly phone her to wake her up..

i nt purposely.. rely...

den after tt we go her houz to pick her..

den on the way fei call us..

hemmm.. go grss de bus stop thr pick her..

so us four go zhen gong fu eat..

dono they lik o nt leh..

after tt send them bck..

me n jen go tm to make sumthg..

n i jz go to ask sumthg..

after tt go mcd wif bert den go buy bert formal shoes..

he buy shoes so easy de lo..

x nd thk much.. haha..

den after tt we go bck to jen houz..

8 bout 4 sumthg i bck home..

my sis stil say i cheat her bcoz i promise her wil bring them go watch movie..

den she though i wun go bck in time..

we plan to watch 6.45 de lo..

den bcoz of my bro we watch 9.45 de,(he hav his tui frm 6.15-9.15) he say oli wil til 11.15 den finish liao..

who noe til 11.45 lik tt jz finish..

when bck home edi 12 lo..

tml my sis stil nd to study n my mum stil nd to work leh..

all my bro's fault..

bt ipman 2 rely nice lo..

strongly recommend tt..

n i vry stupid tt thk tt thurs wun hav ppl go watch who noe so many ppl n i jz cn bought front row de seats..

haizz.. bodohnya..

after jin da xi suan..

i found tt my money rely nt enuf use lo..

dono y i so big spend.. T.T

so frm nw on i nd to save money n control my expenses..

o nt l8r go u wun hav enuf money to use..

wondering y others de salary nt such high bt stil cn save mol money den me..

wondering..

jen, py n sang go kl for travelling today oo..

i din follow coz i rely don hav money liao..

hehe..

othough so ingin wan to go bt..

hemmm.. don wan la..

i spend so many money go enjoy edi..

nd to save liao..

stil thking tt i wan to work til mid of june ma?

othough i pass the resignation letter edi..

bt tauke niong wana me work til mid of june..

hemm.. is don hav the case happen i thk i wil work til mid of june..

bt.. nw.. stil thking..

act i cn vry xiao sha de go away coz if ppl treat me lik tt i oso x nd to treat her so nice..

bcoz nw i short of money.. if i work for half mol months den i wil hav about rm350 oo..

if nt june i wil jz nd to stay 8 home n goyang kaki plus no money in..

bt.. rely tiring..

wondering.. shud i stay til mid of june???

shud i?

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after go thr working i found tt everyone gt motive when they friend wif u..

y they don jz bcum friend oli?

ya i noe.. xian shi de world..

jz sum of them r rely kind.. haizzz

ren xin.. rely hard to c clearly..

nw i dono tt wat i do is true n wat i don is wrong..

i jz feel vry vry tired..

tired to face them wif my fake smile..

tired to face their fake smile..

tired to face their knife bhind their fake smile..

so so so tired..

wondering..

shud i stay?

o shud i leave??

@.@

wondering.....................

money mol important?

o rest mol important?

if leave den don hav extra rm350..

if stay rely rely stress..

rm350 vs stress??

which one win?

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n i jz found tt my cousin kenak 脑膜炎.

go into hospital for almost about one week edi..

i jz noe by nw..

he told me tt his head rely rely vry painful..

n he's fever n until nw stil nt yet recover..

pray for him..

u wil b recover soon my dear..

plus oil oo..

no matter who u r..

no matter wat religion u r..

cn u pls pray for him?

giv a hand.. thx a lot..

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n.. my grandpa oso kenak dengue fever..

bt nw omoz recover edi..

y so many thgs happen de?

haizzzzz

我是不是也这样的傻呢？

2010-05-05T00:33:00.003+08:00

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，
他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，
我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，
好多人都会羡慕他们，
然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，
更没有能力一个人独处，
因为当夜深人静的时候，
他不知道一个人会发生什么事，
坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，
想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，
然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！
所以他们就整天逼自己笑，
以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，
但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，
只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。
他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，
那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，
希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。
即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，
他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。
因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。
有人说他们是向日葵，
是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，
而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活，
却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，
很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。
离自己的梦境越来越来远，
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。
只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。
因为在他们心里，
笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。
但其实不是，他们明白了，
心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。
哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，
好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。
而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，
面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，
无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。
所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑，
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，
因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！

如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，
让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们点关怀，

23.4 星期五

2010-04-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

今天我没做工。。

昨天jen跑来我家过夜。。

坚持说是我邀请她来的。。哈哈。。

昨晚去吃寿司。。

跟jen,吟和bert去。。

我吃到一半我就去载我弟了。。

不过我也吃饱了。。嘻嘻。。

载了我弟就倒回去载jen..

晚上不用讲啦。。

一定是和jen聊很迟才睡。

今天早上jen起早八早起来吵人。。

可是我还是继续睡。。呵呵。。

今天去了。。

hmmmm.. 很多地方。。

忘了。。哈哈。。

晚上去看戏。。

本来约了吟去看‘做人’的。。

可是很迟才有。。

所以没看了。。

最后我和jen去看火龙。。

不错哦。。本来还想去kado的。。

可是累了想早点回家。。

再加上我爸回来了。。

明天还要做工和去笔试。。

希望明天我不会忘记去。。:p

我拿到我的手提电脑了。。

蛮不错的。。

我弟要跟我抢。。

可是。。我到现在也没有存很多钱。。

所以决定要用这架电脑了。。

呵呵。。不用花钱了。。

嘻嘻。。可是应该还是要拿去电脑店弄一下。

因为里面好像很少东西。。

我又不会弄。。

好了。就此停‘笔’。。哈哈。。

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谢谢你jen..陪了我一整天。。

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快母亲节了。。

买黑眼镜给她？还是请她去吃真功夫？

其实我已经送她一个钱包了。。

嘻嘻。。

米修米修。。

17.4.10 星期六

2010-04-17T23:21:00.004+08:00

昨天他们帮妃庆祝生日。。

可是我没去。。

好可惜哦。。。

我做工之后好像错过了好多人的生日。。

对不起哦。。

今天放工过后跑去燕家。。

嘻嘻。。

去捉弄捉弄。。:p

想去捉弄妃的。。

可是她好像很累。。

所以还是算了。。

下个星期六要去面试了。。

谁有baju kurung可以借我啊？？

有点怕怕。。

唉。。

最近我好像总是吃零食。。

不知道有变胖吗？

嘻嘻。。

亲爱的gal五月八号回咯。。

呵呵。。

好期待哦。。

回来两个月哦。。

ah gal..

你回来我带你去吃好吃的哦。。

带你去好玩的地方哦。。嘻嘻。。

mixu mixu..

hemmm.. 那天只有一个人留言。。

是不是只有一个人想我而已？

不过。。

我该知足了。。

至少还有一个人想我。。

mixu mixu。。